bluevibe's Journal

okOK, i need to release the pressure of the past 28 hours.  I was on a perfectly healthy track until yesterday afternoon, wen my bfriend leaves for a day and I decide to eat all the bread in the house and half of the icicles.  I'm thankful that at least I didn't go all night AND I made it to class in the evening (I was seriously considering skipping until the very last minute). 

If I had skipped class, that would have been aweful.  I go to a very good school, expensive and competative.  Missing class would not have done me any favors.  Not to mention I have a mountain of work due on Monday, which I've been avoiding since yesterday afternoon.  The only person it'll hurt in the end is me.   But I'm willing to deal with that.  At least I haven't binged today - that's pretty much all I've been able to do (the day has been spent watching pointless tv .... some uni work but minimal) 

But I have to say that AT LEAST I'm not binging now.  Because I've been exercising and on a healthy track for a few months now and I don't want to give that up and return to where I came from.  It's just too much work.  I will try to do a workout this evening.  My goal is to just get back on the bankwagon, not to give myself too much grief. 

Obviously, I deal badly with stress, but I'm doing better than I was (attended class and not binging today!) -- last semester I would binge for days on end and not attend class.  I need to work through that, and I know that exercise is crucial.  I need to aim to exercise every morning, I think, because if I wait till the afternoon it can lead me to a binge. 

There, that feels better.