bluevibe's Journal

I've been racing away with grad school, lots of papers to hand in and work to be done.  I am certain that my BED has affected the outcome of my work.  I went in today to see my advisor, and he was clearly mad at me because I hadn't been in to see him yet.  The last thing I wanted to do was tell him I have an eating disorder, that I spend hours, days locked in my apartment eating and eating and not doing a scrap of anything else.  Wht an aweful existence.  All that time spent binging has affefted my performance in grad school.

So, this is serious.  It affects my body, my ability to work properly, my ablity to communicationw ith others (I've pretty much given up, becuase I always mess up and embarrass myself in the end ... by not showing up, choosing to binge rather than meet up with people). 

Ahhh, life.  Not much time for sympathy in grad school.  I'm just a not too great student now. I want to be an excellent studetn .... . .. . .. . . .. ... .