bluevibe's Journal

Usually when my parter goes away, and I'm alone in the apartment, I lose sight of everything except binging.  It's aweful.  Last night, I did eat a twix.  But I didn't binge.  I was clearly not 100% ok, but I did not consume all the white hamburger buns in the freezer.  I was agitated and CRAVING binge food, tiltering this way and that.  But I did not go to the store and purchase 3 boxes of cookies, ice cream, chocolate, donuts, chocolate milk, shitty celeb magazines, etc.  I didn't do any of that.  what did I do:

I watched a couple to films, a 1934 tribute to Dietrich and a (more entertaining) documentary about blaxploitation movies.  I ate a salad and wholewheat pasta with sardines, had a couple of popscicles and the twix, munched on almonds.  Ok, not a small meal.  I was watching and eating fast.  But I did not continue on from there to a full fledged binge.  I have every certainty that going to OA meetings is really helping.  And the support of my family is wonderful.  But meeting people who are going through the same thing, is priceless.