bluevibe's Journal

yesterday was a really hard day for me, in many respects. 

I'm dealing with what feels like a mountain, at a time when I should be living it up.  All of my worries are self created.  not that they're not real. My not applying for a loan to pay for my graduate degree is a BIG deal, and I hope to God that I am not too late and that I can still get one.  But I created the worry, the stress, the procrastination, I was the one who, ultimately,did not apply.  And I got in!!  The hard part was over.  But I created another problem to keep me awake at night, to interfere with my relationships. 

Another self created woe: not changing my airplace ticket to attend my best friends wedding.  Can you beleive it, that THAT's what I'm stressing over?!?!?!?

But, it does give me aheadache, and I wish I could express all the pain through music, but I fear I'm crap at that, too.