arabgirl's Journal

Dear John,

Hey Bubbie, I miss you so much. It wasn't suppose to be like this. You were not suppose to be in a box underground. We were both gonna enjoy the money we had now. We both had nothing but time. I guess that wasn't the case with you. I wish you had of included me in your fight. You tried to protect me to much. I was alot stronger than you gave me credit for. I have had to deal with your psycho wife. John I swear where was your mind when you married her. She can't handle Kailey so she shipped her off to boarding school. She wants the kids to have nothing to do with me. But Kailey and I talk, email send pictures back and forth. I know she is hurting. She not only lost you, she lost dad only 11 moths before. And you know how special hers and dads relationship was. Jonathan is a little different. he is very much mommas boy. But he did call me on Fathers day. They are the only link to you I have. And let me tell you, your daughter is very much an Abboushi.

I bought a condo in Riverside(ya I know riverside?) I have a beautiful Lilac Point Siamese, her name is Queenie. I am driving like a driving fool. I got my liscense before I left Portola. I am trying, I really am. It's hard when you have no one. I did like you wanted, I got rid of the walker. It's funny the first time I went without it in public was when we went to dads grave. Yep, I ditched it. But I keep it around to remind me where and way I had it.. I miss my big brother, why did you not tell me. WHY. I got sa letter from Mrs Round she said dad knew before his surgery about you. John, I am your sister why could you not tell me. Did you realize your psyhco wife was such cruel? Such an ass. She is an ass. I need your advice, I need your guidance. Please help me.

I will always love you

sis