smirker's Journal

-Head pounding, feel sick, avoiding looking in THAT direction.

-Still can't help but wonder what thoughts there are.

-Lame.

-Annoying, self-loathing individual, difficult to be self-assured.

-Falling, grabbing onto rocks, slick with wasted tears, tired, so tired.

-Failing, epic failure, losing so much, gaining....what?   NOTHING.

-Pointless writing, not effective in the least.

-So irritating, /probably/ Definitely would be pissed by this.

-GODDAMMIT.

-Losing so much time, lost so much happiness, but wonder if happiness was real

-Was it FEIGNED happiness?

-Could be argued.

-Was so happy, but was closed happiness

-Oh well.

-Story of my life.

-A game, right?

 -HA.

-famous last words.

-headache not as bad. just.....not better

-No solution

-just move on, no way else

-No matter my thoughts, feelings or w/e else there is.

-Must remember

-"Friendship" sacrifice

-willing to do so, so...EAGERLY

-makes me want to chuckle...

-crucification, crucify. lol

-wasted dedication-so much effort - wanted to give effort, wanted to learn, to know...to care

-Such a waste of time to put these thoughts. -No good

-Show these?

-Display the wrong idea.

-say the "L" word.

-"L" O "L" <3

-final words-already said?

-not what was desired to say

-to say what desired would kill...me

-NO-ah FRIENDS

-Death by chocolate. pfftt.

-just wiped from my mind would do

-like tht guy in house

-could really relate.

- [?]

-goo goo gah gah

-reason?

-1st-person liked it

-why do it-cause it applied

-listen now-would not help

-such a messed up mind

-gone crazy?

-going crazy?

-was always crazy?

-all barriers have just broken down

-thanx witchb

-purpose of this?

-keep me from just twiddling my thumbs...or something more?

-headache a little more.

-cannot end well

-don't want it to end well?

-who?

never did this before....why start now?

-how long will this go on?

-too long.

-getting me nowhere

-do i want to go elsewhere?

-how do you truly know?

-damn questions-damn....no.

-dwelling only drags it out and hurts you more.

-then why am i writing this?

-good question.

-such bullsh*t

-"My true friends know I put on an act."

-Yeah. nice reason.

-IDK

-txt, just as bad.

-never confronted face-to-face

-coward

-who?

-me?

-it takes two to tango-right

-or just to tango WELL?

-interesting interpass