smirker's Journal

well, i'm a little stressed right now, i'm trying to talk to Kaila, and i think it's a final conversation unless she just goes off, but it's done. personally, i don't think it's her fault or my fault, but to be painfully honest, an equal failure.  she said "i'm sick of playing games" i basically responded tht she should stop playing and asked how to precede this conversation. she still hasnt responded so, i'm not sure if i should just log off or give a final message which i probably will do. it seems very tense and i don't think we'll be on good terms. while my last journal entry was how i wanted her to be happy, tht hasnt really changed but i have also realized i can't keep "plaing these games" as she calls them. so, w/ this entry done, i think i will send her one more message, and then i am done worrying and fretting over this. i feel like i lost something, but my state of mind has been lost for a while.