vanillalatte's Journal

I haven't written alot about my dad on here in fear that he might read it and get made at em and kick me out of the house we live in together with his gf and some of the time my gf.

Yesterday. I think it's my last day f vacation. I think maybe my bank account with be over drawn. I have enough to cover it and hopefully I won;t get the overdraft fee. 

I'm down there and I get the money. Whew! Thank god. 

I get out of the bank and my gf is picking ot food for our dinner that night. How sweet I didn;t even bring it up. 

We get home and my dad and his gf are gone. I tried calling them earlier to see if they wanted milk while I was at the store. Dad says maybe I don't know. I haven't checked my bank account. I might go shopping later. 

I remind him that I am starting school this week and there si no food in the house. Says oh, maybe. I don;t know yet. 

So when I get home and they aren't there I asume they went out to eat because they are never gone unless they are eating. They eat out a lot when there is no food in the house and they rarely invite me to come along with them. That is my dads gf fault. She claims they never do anything together. When really she means, they never go on a vacation together. Which is true. But I guess dad some how thinks taking her out to eat and leaving me out makes up for that. 

 I get home with my gf and we start making an early dinner because everytime we want to use the kitchen dad ans his gf have a way of pushiing us out of the kitchen everytime they want to use it. 

I spend about and hour and a half on this meal. Try to get everything perfect and yummy becasue my gf paid for it all and I wanted us to eat together sense she has to cook her own meat. And that ususlly means dinner get cold while she's doing that because it takes a while for meat to cook. 

We finally sit down together. I take about 3 bites of my food and then my phone rings. 

It's dads gf "ummm can you clean up the kitchen and the fridge so we can put all the food away?"

Of couse, why wouldn't there be any interuptions. I say " ah, yeah sure"

Her "oh are you at home"

Me "yeah, I just sat down to dinner with my gf"

Her "oh, sorry"

She wasn't sorry at all. 

So I do it in fear that dad will get really mad if I don't. Even though I had been slaving away for an early dinner so we wouldn't get kicked out of the kitchen. It didn't work as much as I had thought. 

I was all the dishes. Including dads and his gf dishes. I wipe down all the counters.

I clean out the refidgerator. Dump all the old food that has been sitting in there for days. Almost a week. 

I make sure there is nothing on the floor. wipe down the stove. Basically, clean the entire kitchen before they get home. 

Dad and his gf get home. I start putting all the food away. Dad doesn't help at all he just goes into his room to do god knows what. His gf standing out there starring at me put everything away. What is her problem. She peers into the fridge "oh, did you through away the pho?" 

me "yes I did, it's taking up a lot of room in the fridge and it's been sitting here dor days"

Her " oh, okay" with this look on her face like I should have know she was going to eat it right then and there. What an idiot.

I tell her that she had asked me to clean out the fridge. she say "okay! I'M NOT BLAMING YOU!"

In my mind I say. "yes, you are, you fat cow"

 She storms into their room and starts bitching about me to my father. I can hear her doing it. Dumb bitch. I walk over to the door and knock. And say "there is beef tofu with rice on the counter if you want it"

No thank you. No, no that's okay. No gratitued what so ever. For offering my gf food because I threw out her pressious pho that was going bad anyway. She didn't tell me not to throw it out! How is that my fault! 

If it were dad cleaning out the fridge I bet he would have done the same thing!!!!!!!!

What a bitch I wanted to smack her.

We go to the beach so I can calm down. Because I am really heated. I didn't get to eat my dinner, I had to wash their dishes and I get a bunch of attitude from my dad gf. WTF! 

And I feel like I can;t say anything because they bought groceries. I feel trapped. 

We go to the beach for a couple hours. I feel pretty good. They aren't there when we get home. Probably out eating again I assume. 

Hours go by they are still out. Hmm. Wonder what happened to them. But I don't call because they might be having some along time somewhere and I don't really feel like talking to either of them. 

They get home and immediatly go into their room and say nothing. They only come out to use the bathroom. No, hi how are you? No. Are you doing okay. Nothing!

This morning dad wakes up and starts yelling at me first thin. No good morning. Nothing. He says "you really should get this shit out of my way!" what an asshole. 

I haven't talk ed to you in about 15 hours and the first thing you say to me is that. That's the first thing that comes out of your mouth when I didn't even get to eat my dinner last night because of YOU! Fuck. What a mean prick. 

I quickely get up and clean it all up because I don't want to hear another fucking negative thing come out of his mouth about me! AT ALL!

He comes back out like he needs more coffee, but he doesn't get any, he just looks at the kitchen turns around and says " i am sorry that I said that in that tone. I shouldn't have said it that way."

Yeah right, what kind of apology is that. He doesn't even sound serious! He sounds like he is squeezing it out because it's all done and he can't complane about it anymore. What a dick. 

I think he just apologied to me because me gf is in the house and he doesn't want to look like a bad guy. If she weren't there he wouldn't have apologized at all I am sure. 

So, there you have it. I feel a little better getting it all out in some way. Sense I can't really do that in MY OWN HOUSE. I can't wait to move out of this hell hole.