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JTLauder 
Well, I've been here a few weeks now. Truthfully, when I first found out about this site and joined, I hit a sudden but fortunately brief rough spot. So I eagerly joined in hopes of finding other people going through the same issues to converse with.
I've tried to spend some time getting a feel for the atmosphere here first. I was and still am reluctant to reveal too much detail about my life for fear of someone recognizing who I might be. It's safer to remain anonymous online.
But eager to be a part of some meaningful conversations, I wanted to join in on the discussions. I'm a very sensitive person, but to overcome my hypersensitivity, I've gone the other extreme by shutting down my emotions so I don't become overwhelmed by them. As a result I often appear cold and unexpressive when all I'm doing is try to remain calm and focused.
So since I have a hard time expressing my emotional needs, I usually end up taking the other role and helping others instead in my attempts to relate to people.
That's all I've been doing in my posts on this forum. Then I find a number of my posts being deleted. The general explanation for why that happens is for abusive or troubling posts. That is not at all like me and I am very careful to not do that. At worst, my responses are very matter of factly, but in no way offensive, abusive or insensitive.
Sure, I don't play a patronizing parent that just strokes people heads and say that all will be well but offer nothing to change behaviors and thinking. I offer a different perspective that I believe helps to get out of a skewed viewpoint which we tend to fall into when depression hits.
Instead I find that for the most people here are just whining and want to be pumped up full of meds to escape their depression rather than work really hard to getting to the root of their problems. Yes, meds can be helpful and in some cases necessary, but too many people are too dependent on medicine, for all of their health care, not just mental disorders. For something as serious and complex as depression, I would think there would be more people in therapy, but people here just want quick fixes.
I've tried the quick fixes folks. And I've tried the meds. I'm off meds now, and I admit, it hasn't been easy. It's been a really long hard road, but by learning better coping skills, I'm managing my depression. It doesn't mean that I'm not susceptible to depression anymore. It means that when I'm stressed and find myself beginning to fall into a depressive mood, I know what to do to keep from being so self absorbed and sink totally into a deeper depression.
At this point if anyone is still reading, I'm just rambling and ranting now. It's late beginning to fall into another self-pity session how my attempts to be helpful have just been shunned. Yet another forum site where I'm not welcomed. But I thought this one would be different because it's suppose to be a support site and not a fan based specialty topic full of flame wars. But I guess my unique personality just makes it difficult for me to relate to most people.
But I'm not going to fall into that trap. I'm not going to get all bent out of shape from a bunch of other anonymous posters. If this site doesn't offer real support other than warm fuzzies where personal responsibilities and truth have no place here, then I don't need to waste my time here.
I've tried to spend some time getting a feel for the atmosphere here first. I was and still am reluctant to reveal too much detail about my life for fear of someone recognizing who I might be. It's safer to remain anonymous online.
But eager to be a part of some meaningful conversations, I wanted to join in on the discussions. I'm a very sensitive person, but to overcome my hypersensitivity, I've gone the other extreme by shutting down my emotions so I don't become overwhelmed by them. As a result I often appear cold and unexpressive when all I'm doing is try to remain calm and focused.
So since I have a hard time expressing my emotional needs, I usually end up taking the other role and helping others instead in my attempts to relate to people.
That's all I've been doing in my posts on this forum. Then I find a number of my posts being deleted. The general explanation for why that happens is for abusive or troubling posts. That is not at all like me and I am very careful to not do that. At worst, my responses are very matter of factly, but in no way offensive, abusive or insensitive.
Sure, I don't play a patronizing parent that just strokes people heads and say that all will be well but offer nothing to change behaviors and thinking. I offer a different perspective that I believe helps to get out of a skewed viewpoint which we tend to fall into when depression hits.
Instead I find that for the most people here are just whining and want to be pumped up full of meds to escape their depression rather than work really hard to getting to the root of their problems. Yes, meds can be helpful and in some cases necessary, but too many people are too dependent on medicine, for all of their health care, not just mental disorders. For something as serious and complex as depression, I would think there would be more people in therapy, but people here just want quick fixes.
I've tried the quick fixes folks. And I've tried the meds. I'm off meds now, and I admit, it hasn't been easy. It's been a really long hard road, but by learning better coping skills, I'm managing my depression. It doesn't mean that I'm not susceptible to depression anymore. It means that when I'm stressed and find myself beginning to fall into a depressive mood, I know what to do to keep from being so self absorbed and sink totally into a deeper depression.
At this point if anyone is still reading, I'm just rambling and ranting now. It's late beginning to fall into another self-pity session how my attempts to be helpful have just been shunned. Yet another forum site where I'm not welcomed. But I thought this one would be different because it's suppose to be a support site and not a fan based specialty topic full of flame wars. But I guess my unique personality just makes it difficult for me to relate to most people.
But I'm not going to fall into that trap. I'm not going to get all bent out of shape from a bunch of other anonymous posters. If this site doesn't offer real support other than warm fuzzies where personal responsibilities and truth have no place here, then I don't need to waste my time here.
I'm new here. Found out about this site from a newspaper article so decided to check it out. Looks safe enough, but I'll just sit back and listen in for a while first.
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If you would like to find out more about me and then talk that would be great. Just read my journal and bio. I only just signed up for this site as well but since I wear my heart on my sleeve I couldn't seem to stop typing (lol).
Jessalynn635
I'm actually a very emotionally sensitive person too, but I keep it all bottled up that people think I'm a cool cat. I have problems expressing myself emotionally and it would actually be a good thing if I can talk it out. Maybe I might be able to do that here.
JTLauder