Journal Entry for June 23, 2009
June 23, 2009 3:53pm
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doll2m
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About Me
doll2m
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About Me
I am female, 37 yrs old and live in NY. I love animals and hope one day to be able to save wildlife. I am shy when first meeting people and like to learn new things. I like the BDSM lifestyle and enjoy my "submissive" life. I am very family oriented. I am an honest person and a great friend to many. I also enjoy riding on motorcycles(Harleys). Love to feel the wind blowing in my hair. It is a very freeing feeling. I do not have children but hope to have at least one child at some point. I have had a difficult life and I am trying to learn to accept my short commings. I have been blessed with friends and family.
I am female, 37 yrs old and live in NY. I love animals and hope one day to be able to save wildlife. I am shy when first meeting people and like to learn new things. I like the BDSM lifestyle and enjoy my "submissive" life. I am very family oriented. I am an honest person and a great friend to many. I also enjoy riding on motorcycles(Harleys). Love to feel the wind blowing in my hair. It is a very freeing feeling. I do not have children but hope to have at least one child at some point. I have had
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I enjoy reading, writing, art(not good at it but love it), music(all types), bike riding, wall climbing, swimming, my computer, vacationing, snorkling , love beaches at night, motorcycles, baseball, hanging out with friends and family, exercise(yoga and cardio), taking long drives, and anything having to do with animals/nature....
I enjoy reading, writing, art(not good at it but love it), music(all types), bike riding, wall climbing,
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I AM SORRY
June 23, 2009 11:17am
Hello everyone and let me start off by saying that I have missed you all very much. I needed some time to re-group myself and my life and …
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DEALING WITH MY HIV VIRUS.....
October 6, 2008 6:38pm
Just a quick updaten to let you all know that I have not forgotten any of you. Infact it is quite the opposite. I have started HIV medication and it …
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missing you. Don't know whether you'll read this. I hope you are taking care of yourself and that the meds aren't toorough. I am fine , back in London Here's a big hug. Love and hugs, Md2.
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even if you cancel your account, i'll be thinking of you. love always.
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Hey ~J~.... I wish that your brother would log on and let us know what is going on with you.... We all care and miss you... Hope you're hanging in there and adjusting to your meds. XXXOOO~ Deb
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Close HIV
I was dx on 2-3-04 with hiv. My husband was + and I did not know it. I found out after we were married and had to go and get tested. When I found out about MY + status, I thought I would just die. Being dx with hiv made my life that much more complicated. I am in great need for some comfort and friends. How do I go on with my life after my husband gave me hiv?????? How do I keep from living my life filled with ANGER towards my husband???? Grrrrr, HELP!
Treatments
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- It is difficult for me to really open up with people. I have MAJOR trust issues. I do TRY!
Close Bipolar Disorder
Where to start?? I have Bipolar disorder, being one of the many. I am currently on a med regimin that seems to be working 75% of the time. I am looking for a good network of people to chat with, that have similar life situations. I get highs and lows, mostly highs(mania) but I am trying to work it all through.
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- Takes away some of the anxiety...No side effects
- Depakote Not Working
- Dry mouth, headaches, sleepiness, loss of memory, partial catatonic state.
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Outpatient program after hospitalization.
- Haldol Not Working
- Had hallucinations, difficult behaviors, poor impulse control. Sleepiness.
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- On this for about 6 months..No side effects.
- Lithium Not Working
- To sedative. Unable to function with everyday tasks. Unable to drive.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Have difficulty explaining my actual feelings. Feel nervous and scared when in sessions.
- Risperdal Not Working
- To hyper, fast talking, racing thoughts and unable to sleep. Severe muscle pain in legs....OUCH!!
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Makes me a bit drowsy, but seems to keep me focused and calmer.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Felt no difference. Drug did nothing.
- Zyprexa Not Working
- To hyper, unable to sleep.
- Tenex Too Soon to Tell
- A bit tired at first and then...well I do not know yet.
Open Eating Disorders
Type: AnorexiaI have been fighting an eating disorder all of my life. I have anorexia but I am fighting hard to change this and to eat healthy.
Treatments
- Dietitian Consult Somewhat Helpful
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Outpatient Treatment Program Somewhat Helpful
- Went to program for 6 weeks to get some help.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- This helps a lot for people to understand me and accept me and my disorder.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Did not help at all.
Open Sexual Abuse
I have difficulty taking about this area of my life.
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- Learned this in in-patient hosiptal setting and it is very helpful.
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Somewhat Helpful
- Went for about 2yrs and found it to be a safe place to talk, listen and vent.
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Nice place to talk with "Safe" people in a "Safe" environment.
- Leave Somewhat Helpful
- Ran for many yrs and stayed with friends in AZ for awhile.
- Music Working / Worked
- I love listening to music(all types) and drawing/painting at the same time.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- I do have difficulty telling my story. Helpful to be around people who understand.
Open Self-Injury
I have been cutting for many years now..Started when I was a teen and still in my 30's and having difficulty.....
Treatments
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Liked talking to others with the same issue
- Outpatient Treatment Program Somewhat Helpful
- Went to outpatient in October and it helped to be with and talk to others with the same issues...
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Can talk with my therapist and get out all the pent up feelings....
- Squeezing Ice Somewhat Helpful
- works at times when I can truly focus....
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- sometimes have difficulty telling others what I am doing to myself because I am afriad they will not understand.
Open Anger Management
I was infected with HIV by my husband and found out 2 months after we were married..I am extremely angry and tend to act ut my anger in inappropriate ways. I would like to learn how to let go of my anger or deal with it in a more constructive manner....O also am very angry about my mental illnesses and inability to cope with all that I have been dealt with....
Treatments
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- When I was hospitalized I attended various groups for anger management and met others with similar issues...it did help some...
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- If I can get out of the anger that is eating at my brain....
- Physical Exercise Somewhat Helpful
- I enjoy running and cardio and exercise everyday which does help to release some of the anger that is trapped within me....
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- Does help to relax me when I get very tensestressed out and angry.
- Ativan Somewhat Helpful
- Also helps with the overwhelming feelings of anger..this drug helps me to become more focused on the main issues for the anger..It is mild but is effective at times....
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I see a one to one counselor that I can talk to and release some of the issues that I have buried deep inside me..issues that are the main cause to my constant anger...Find constructive ways to deal with my husband and the terrible anger I have towards him....
Open Depression
I am Bipolar with Mania and depression along with other issues...I am medicated to help with my depression....
Treatments
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- When I am able to control my moods better...
- Prozac Not Working
- Made me feel to hyper and unable to focus..In a mania stage...
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- When I am able to reach deep feelings and work on them...Does not always happen though...
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Is working and helps a lot.....
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Some family and my riends at DS has been very helpful...
- Trazodone Not Working
- Made me feel to drowsy...was unable to drive....
- Writing Working / Worked
- I Love writing in my Journal both at home and on DS. I get out a lot of my feelings that are deep down inside the darkness of my soul..It is most helpful.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Did not work..Made me extremely Manic and had to be hospitalized...
