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vader 
10:03pm, February 10, 2009
On November 1st,2009 it was 22 years that I lost my sainted father.I lost my father at the age of 40.He died one month after my birthday.He came home from the hospital and he died in my arms and it was one of the most traumatic events in my life.I dont talk about this.I cant.It is just too painful.My father was the greatest person.He loved to read.He loved books and fine literature and music.He loved television and one of the shows that he loved was The Honeymooners.Jackie Gleason was his favorite and in 1959,at the age of 12...I saw my first broadway show.It was called Take Me Along with Jackie Gleason and Gleason was the Great One.After seeing him perform...he was truly great.My father was working in the dye house then.The conditions were dangerous.There was no insurance.It was just a sweat shop and he decided to change his life.My father decided at 40...he wanted to be a mailman.He enjoys talking to people.He brought the book and he studied every night and really studied.Come the day of the test,.my father passed with a 98....he had the highest mark.Then he started to work in the post office and he never looked back.Daddy was special and I will never forget him.Daddy was a Yankeee fan and it would have thrilled him to see them win the World Series for the 27th time.Heres to you,,,.papa! We won! And I hope to see you soon for it is so hard without you.vader.
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why cant women truly have friends? I know that this is going to be a bit ornery,but havesnt anyone noticed that when a group of men go out(even to have a pizza) MEN HAVE FUN AND I AM JEALOUS! Why cant we? Why are us women always complaining and gossiping? Cant we have fun like men do? And the same thing goes for friendship.Hasnt anyone noticed that men can stay friends with one person for 30-to 40 years and some of us are lucky to even have a close friend.I had friends all of my life.It was the 1950s.I was going to Saint Annes and i met 3 girls.One of the girls her name was Eileen and we became like sisters.We were very close.But in the 1958...her father got transferred to South Carolina and this wasnt a good move for the family.They felt betrayed and in the 1950s there was a clannish atomosphere about outsiders in this town.I saw Eileen in 1958 and we wrote.Then I saw her again in 1968....that was the last time...until I got a letter in 1978......she explained that she was married now and had children and that was the last time I heard.I was so hurt.But i learned a hard lesson.And the lesson is this...people dont keep in touch with others like they used to and it is good to have friends...but friends can grow apart and when this happens...it is better not to pursue it.I cant pursue it.I dont know where she is and ever since Brad died....I am busy doing other things...but hanging out with the girls like I used to when I was 30 does not appeal to me and I do all of my shopping including the food alone.I did go shopping one day when Brad was alive...we were out all day and it was a waste of time for me because not on ly did she not discuss what i wanted to talk about...she just quit talking at the end of the day and it ended in silence.
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Oh Vader, I truly think you haven't met the "right" friend yet. My best friend I have had for 54 yrs,...truly. She has been with me in all the highs and lows of my life, always, She stood beside me at the alter when I married, was my son's godmother, wept with me when he cried. The other side of the coin is whenever we get together for lunch,..it lasts 2-3 hrs, and laugh,...we have such fun together. It is like ying and yang. We can be very serious, shed a couple of tears and then laugh our way to more tears. I know I am blessed with her, and I hope you find someone like that. Perhaps in a church group, or some common interest?? Like your love of your cats? I pray you find someone to share your interests, it makes all the difference in the world. God Bless you, Love, Judy
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Honey, women can have women friends. You just have not met your match yet. I have only had a handful in my life, but once you find one, you have a treasure for life. Do not give up. I hope you can keep looking, and find someone that can be your true friend. I do admitt that my husband,James is my very best friend and has been our 21 years of being married and for 8 years when friends was all we were.(well we fell in love somewherre in there.) Love,Peggy
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to everyone .Thanks again and it is still hard for me to meet people.
The concilosr wants me to have a roommmate and I am sharing with all of you..Mine is no longer with me...she turned out to be a nightmare.Let me tell the story...I have got 2 cats,.Kramer is 11 and Tooey is 10.I have raised them together and they are my cats.Kramer never left Brads side and when the police took his body...she hissed....she was determined to stay with her master.Now let me share about the roommate.First of all..she was having very bad problems.And I mean bad..her husband threw her out and locked her out of the house and she had no where to go.The shelters were full,so I asked her to spend the night at my place..What a mistake that was! People never get involved when it comes to these issues.There are no answers.I could have gotten hurt.When she arrived..I could see the bruises.and this is where I began to question my judgement.Let me tell you what happened.Well she had a canary over my cats and Kramer let her know it.Kramer and Tooey ran from her like a bat out of hell.(the song from Meat Loaf)....They ran and hid under Brads bed and wouldnt come out.She began to scream and I mean scream at me and i had to tell her to cool it.After she calmed down..she told me that she was broke and had no money.(good grief) I mean why bother>..I told these people i wanted a roommmate.I went into the bathroom and when I came out..she was on my commuter...checking her e mail and didnt even ask me if she could use it.I dont know what she did..but i am getting all weired e mail.The ones that i dont know..i delete and I couldnt get my e mail for two days.I had to get another password because mine was comprised and now I have to open the computer twice in order to get my mail.Then she asked me for a soda...which i dont have.I answered the phone and she got up from the computer and proceeded to open my fridge.She took a soda and some left over macraoni and a sandwich...and proceeded to put it in her backpack.Then she asked me..."Dont you have any food in the house.?" I am hungary here and that was the final straw.Then she told me that she would think about it and I told her that I am thinking of it also and i have decided this..i will take the winter off and proceed to work all summer.I am 62 and i cant work like i used to...even tho I am in good health.Seattle has got more work in the summer time and I intend to do this.I told Brad that I wouldnt loose the house and I would keep the cats together.After she left,I received a call and i told the person that I had no intention of making her my roommate..Difficult people I have got no use for it...and Princesses need not apply.Then I realized that I knew her husband and I believe him.I dont believe half of this stuff happened.I believe tht she didnt want to be married anymore and she made up these stories.He was released from jail and he did time for something that he did not do.The investigation found no allegations of it and now the poor guy cant get a job...I mean if you want to get out of a relationship....please be truthful...pack a bag.save a bit of money and leave....dont accuse someone of something that they did not do.Because it takes years to clear your name in seattle and even when your name is clear......you will meet people who do not believe you.If I had a boyfriend now it would be Edward or Jacob of Twilight....I have always liked the eyes and Edwards eyes are awesome....what do you think?
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i think you did the right thing. when you care for those who need your help and they turn around and be an ass, they dont need to be around you.........using your stuff without you saying that they could.........just taking advantage of a good man.........i see god did not want that to continue........you did what the lord would have wanted you to do........you got rid of her............pround of you my friend....I know god is... : )
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tha ks danroy.She was a disaster.She took all of my food and the neighbor had to give me cat food.I cant live with anyone.I want to be alone.
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my brother. yes, I can you that your father was a great , loving and caring father for you....he loves you with all of his heart. he would do anything for you, his son. My father means a lot to me as well.......he would do just about anything for me.....my brother, when my father goes home, I pray to be as strong as you are... : ) Yes, I like you, will miss my father very much....but I know that one day I will see my father again...and so will you.....just keep reminding your self of all the good times you had with your father and know that you will see your father again.....his spirit is looking down upon you wilth total love.....when you look up to heaven, smile, because he is smiling down at you......he is just find......god bless you my brother
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