FireManj

Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Friend

He was more than just a friend. I loved him and was in love with him once. The timing was wrong and I moved on and found love elsewhere... only then did he realize his love for me. I only came to understand his love not too long ago and shortly after he passed. He passed the end of last month. He was only 22 years old.

Treatments

Crying Somewhat Helpful

Every time I see his picture, or remember a specific memory or am alone for longer than a minute, I start to cry. I don't know if it's helping because I still cry everyday.

Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful

I find that as long as I keep busy and in company of others, I don't think about it. It does work, but of course it's temporary because as soon as I'm by myself everything rushes back.

Music Somewhat Helpful

Some music helps because some songs say the things I am feeling. Other songs help because they take me back to memories of me with him.

Poetry Somewhat Helpful

The words are positive and inspiring.

Prayer Not Working

He was such a good person that I get angry when I remember that he has passed and that God has done this. I can't seem to understand and it does make me question my faith.

Remembering Too Soon to Tell

It hasn't even been a month yet and the memories are just all too fresh still.. so fresh that the memory of me learning about his death stills seem too surreal.

Talking Somewhat Helpful

When I hear other people having good things to say about him, or I am reassured by other of how much he cared about me, it does make me feel good, but only to have a roller coaster effect because I feel it is unfair to have someone who cares about you that much taken away.

Close Sexual Abuse

still hard for me to fully be able to talk about it and even really address it