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MissLaChaney 
6:32pm, April 26, 2009
Here we go again!!
I am 10 months out now and lost another 4 pounds. I weigh 208. I have lost 106 pounds from my highest weight 314. I have lost 89 from my pre op weight of 297. I have been a little bummed out because I haven't lost a pound in three weeks but I just keep thinking that I can't remember ever NOT gaining weight over the holidays so I'm happy. I lost instead of gaining.
The last two weeks have been very traumatic for me. My husband lost his job, overdosed (intentionally) and was in the hospital for 10 days from complications from all of the pills he took. He is now an inpatient in the Behaviorial Health unit at the same hospital.
He lost his job before Christmas and didn't tell anyone - he held it in all through Christmas morning opening presents...all through the family Christmas parties...all through New Year's Eve party celebration...the Buckeyes Bowl game and everything. Then I came home from work on Jan 8th and found him in bed with what I thougt was the flu (because he told me that morning he wasn't going to work because he had the flu). I couldn't rouse him and he was barely breathing....more like a gurgle than actual breathing. And when I tried to rouse him he would just try to cough and couldn't even get a cough out. Found the suicide note...called 911...and my life has been a whirlwind ever since!
Then the engine in my car blew up on the way to the hospital!
It is a miracle that my husband lived. He took 34 vicoden (hydrocodone which is generic for Lortab 7.5/500 mg) and 24 1 mg Klonopin (Clonazepam). He survived with no liver damage, no pancreas damage, no brain damage and no medical damage at all!
He is getting excellent psyciatric help currently and we expect full healing to his mind as well as his body. The hospital told me he should get to come home soon. And I found a good used car to buy. So everything is good now.
God is so good. Psalms 103. I always say that if I couldn't have any other scripture in the Bible, I could live just fine as long as I had Psalms 103 because it says it all. God heals our diseases, forgives our sins, redeems our life from the pit and crowns us with love and compassion. He satisfies our desires with good things.
I'm not making it up - read it for yourself!!
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You have had a rough several weeks.
I am glad that your husband is coming out on the other side of this and I pray that it all works out. This is a difficult time for so many loosing jobs, homes and the like. Your faith will get you through wether you have material things or not.
I pray for you and the recovery of your husband and family. This must be very difficult.
Jane
SweetPea31
Wow...you sure have had a very difficult couple of weeks. I am sooooo sorry to hear all that is going on in your life. You are right when you say that God is good, but it certainly doesn't make this stuff easy. It is apparent that you have a tremendous faith! When our hope is in Christ, it does make the seemingly unbearable storms of life...well, at least tolerable. Jesus has said that in this world there will be trouble...but as believers we can take heart b/c He has already overcome the world. Hang in there, my friend. I will be praying for you and your beloved. This is an uphill battle, but you can and will get through it. It will grow your faith and may even draw you and your spouse together. Be sure that you are staying connected...whether at church or in a small group, etc. Don't act like everything is fine, if it is not really fine. It's ok to ask for help. Reach out to other believers...we are called to bear one another's burdens after all. Let people walk through this with you. I understand the pain and heartache associated with suicide and depression. My brother has been clinically depressed for most of my life. I'm 36, he is 51. He has attempted suicide 3 or 4 times. Has been hospitalized too many times to count. When he stays on his meds everything status quo. The problem is that when he is feeling good he doesn't think he needs the meds anymore. Yikes! In November 07, the day before Thanksgiving, I had to hospitalize my oldest daughter (who was 12) because she was suicidal. It was the longest 8 days of my life. She is medicated still...although we have had tons of counseling and she is emerging from the depression slowly but surely. Now she only takes meds for anxiety. A very close friend of hers died from a brain tumor and that is what began the downward spiral for her. With you husband losing his job, he probably felt like he lost part of his identity as well. As angry as you might be at your husband for not telling you or confiding in you...try to extend as much grace as possible. He really needs you to be his helpmate...now more than ever. Work on becoming his biggest fan. Practice building him up...even when you don't feel like it. God will honor your decision to honor and respect your husband. It will cause you to love him more as well. That too I speak from experience. In our first year of marriage, my husband had 13 jobs!!! He was depressed, but was never treated. I believe that his recovery was nothing short of divine intervention!!! And a wife who loved God more than she disliked her spouse! I'm sorry...I'm preaching. Please know that my heart breaks for you and your situation. I will be storming the gates of heaven on your behalf.
Wishing you abundant peace as you trust in HIM,
Jenn
CampPrincess