Nobody Knows!
October 27, 2008 6:03am
Nobody knows who i really am,
I've never felt this empty before,
and if someone would come along from a journey long
who's gonna comfort me when …
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starshine267
8:30am, December 8, 2008
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About Me
starshine267
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About Me
Very quiet and loney 18 year old suffering from depression but i am determined not to give up! Please don't ever suffer alone, but please also don't take advantage of people's kindness on here, we are all here to help eachother not to create deeper wounds.....
Very quiet and loney 18 year old suffering from depression but i am determined not to give up! Please don't ever suffer alone, but please also don't take advantage of people's kindness on here, we are all here to help eachother not to create deeper wounds.....
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Interests
playing the flute, piano, reading, videogames and sci-fi/ fantasy programmes, anime, manga etc!
playing the flute, piano, reading, videogames and sci-fi/ fantasy programmes, anime, manga etc!
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I should just curl up and DIE!!!
October 11, 2008 8:22am
Why i am i fighting anymore, no one cares!
I hate myself and i hate it even more whne i get like this cause i'm such a selfish person, i should …
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Rollercoaster
September 30, 2008 5:37am
Somethings wrong with me at the mo (and yes, i mean different from usual)
My moods are all over the place and keep swinging around, i'm scared …
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Still Going
September 23, 2008 4:47am
Really thought i was just gonna give up last week and end it, but i'm still here. Wish i wasn't but i am !!
Bethxxx
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And Rock bottom
September 16, 2008 5:49am
Feeling so very low today.....
Why am i still here? I've started back at school in a new year (i'm resitting my final year), the year tutor …
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hey sweetie, just checking in to see how you're doing, I'm hardly on DS these days, facebook has eaten my brain. Going to the Supernatural convention tomorrow, very excited.....huge hugs anyway.....Zan
Prayer
Hey... just letting you know you're still in my prayers. Hugs and love from Karen
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Prayer
Hugs and love for you! You're still in my prayers... Karen
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GOD BLESS YOUR DEAR, SWEET HEART!
Flower
HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Support Groups
Close Depression - Teen
I first started feeling very low when i was 13, but everyone put it down to pressure at school and didn't think anything more of it. For 2 years i struggled with the 'black feeling until i was diagnosed with severe clinical depression and anxiety in 2005. Since then, none of the treatments have worked and nothing seems to be getting any better...
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Not Working
- They spent all their time ignoring what i had to say and put my depression down to all the wrong reasons.
- Lexapro Too Soon to Tell
- Just started on this...
- Prozac Not Working
- Had no effect whatsoever and gave more suicidal thoughts
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Helped me to talk a bit more openly about my feelings and problems.
- Remeron Not Working
- This anti-depressant made me feel sick and exhausted all the time. I never worked for me and even gave me a blood disorder known as neutropenia (note to everyone on this drug, it is extremely rare for this to occur!). This is my third anti-depressant drug and it has been of no help whatsoever.
Close Hearing Loss & Deafness
Type: Sensorineural (Moderate)I was born (they think..) with a hearing loss affecting both ears called a sensory neurine impairment. For those that don't know, the condition means that the hair on the coclear are dead. i have very little hearing in one ear, and slighlty more in the other. Since i have a different frequency loss on each side, i can only use one hearing aid at any one time (Grrr!!) and rely on lip reading for the rest of the time!
Treatments
- Hearing Aids Somewhat Helpful
- I could only wear one hearing aid at a time as i have a different frequncy loss in each ear, so my hearing is often not that helpful..
- Lip Reading Working / Worked
- I find lip reading very hard work and often come back from school very tierd with a thumping headache lol!
Open Tinnitus
Basically, the ringing in my ears drives me nuts sometimes, especially at night!! I have a hearing impairment as well which doesn't help matters. People tend to think i'm strange when i talk about the noises in my head lol!
Open Teen Anxiety
Anxiety is something that i have suffered from since a young age, but never has it got as bad as the past few months. It often feels like my guts have turned in worms and often, my fears have no relevence to whats going on around me!
Open Seasonal Affective Disorder
Until recently, i couldn't understand why my depression got a zillion times worse in the winter. Unfortunately, now i KNOW why...
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionYuck....
Treatments
- Celexa Not Working
- They won't change it, even though i tell them it does about as much good as swallowing jelly beans!!
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Not Working
- stupid doctors!
- Lexapro Not Working
- Hate this, hate life!!
- Prozac Not Working
- STUPID!!!!!
- Psychotherapy Not Working
Open Vegetarians & Vegans
Type: VegetarianBecame vegi because i just can't stand the idea of other living things inside me lol. Have lost weight and my skin has become better since, i've been vegi for nearly 8 years now!
Treatments
- Patience Working / Worked
- Slightly peeved by the lack of vegi options in supermarkets and resturaunts though....
Open Autism / Autism Spectrum
Some of my familly members are on various points of the autistic spectra and i just wanted to understand more about it!
Open Raynaud's Disease
Pins and needles, light headed all the time especially when standing. JOY!!
