Scared again
Whenever I get too tired from pushing myself too hard and don't have enough energy to finish the projects that I am …
made a whole bunch of calls trying to coordinate my care. for pain management and neuro. the pca review nurse is trying to help me get more hours, primarily so we can get someone to come from further away to help out and afford it. trying to interview for a pca. hope to get a back up person soon then... 2-3 weeks max, thankfully.
scaling back further 2 projects, only doing bare minimum here and there.
since about 2.5 years ago, i have gained a total of a little over 40 lbs. i'm barely 5'5", now 164 lbs. most of the gain is from after hysto 3 months ago. yet my thyroid is fine. many women in my family get heavier after menopause, for whatever reason. oh well.
trying to stay grateful and patient. watching tv, which is much as i can do besides sleep recently. glad to have some yummy leftovers from last nite's gf delish cooking.
started to train the voice detection software and learn more about auditory microsoft program. starting asap i hope to get enough poetry and material edited for 3 diff contests for early next year. that and knitting are my big plans for winter.
good times , simpsons reruns, yay
Whenever I get too tired from pushing myself too hard and don't have enough energy to finish the projects that I am …
because I don't like being disabled, I frequently push the envelope of what I can do.Especially when someone asks …
I have had a few days of struggling with lots of ups and downs, (more downs). But instead of isolating myself, I came …