vlh2014's Journal

This has not been a particularly good day.  So, to not think of the bad, I have decided to list some of the positive.  Here goes:  woke up this morning,  still have feeling (I know this because I am hurting), mind is still ok (I know this because I can write in my journal), still have sight (I know this because I could see the blue sky and see my dirty house), still can hear (I know this because I heard my dogs barking).  Most importantly, it could be much worse, I am above ground and I know it. 

But sometimes the pain just gets me down.  I want to work, but some days the effort it takes to continue is almost too much to bear.  The thought that keeps me going is that at life's longest moment it is still a short ride.  It would be nice to reach 120 and look back on this moment and wonder why was I depressed.  They have found a way to "delete" the scoliosis along with the pain.  No more nerve damage and no more wondering if I can manage one more day.  What a wonderful life.