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Things with the kids are going great. Morgan is out of school and he had a good report card. He is enjoying his summer, mostly swimming. Riley is weening and having some issues with that, but she's doing okay. I went away to Chicago for a few days with my mom, my mom in law babysat, and Riley did wonderful. I come back and she's very whiney. She misses nursing I can tell, and I feel bad for her. I wonder if I cut her off too soon, but I don't think I did. She's 25 months old, and though I was going to nurse to 2.5 yrs, I felt my trip would be as good as time as any. She's doing okay, I just have to distract her a lot. Whenever she's bored or tired she wants it, and I have to find ways to distract or soothe her. This makes my day very busy, but I know she'll be okay and this too will pass. Other than her "withdrawals", she's doing wonderful. Talking more and loving summer. Loves the outdoors...swimming in her little pool, playing on her slide, going for walks, and riding her bikes.
Things with my husband are not so great. He's been very withdrawn. He's working a lot and he enjoys his new job. I thought once he had a job he liked, things would magically become better between us. this is not the case. He still never touches me or trys to be close to me. So now instead of just lonely and depressed, I feel rejected. And I feel I'm an attractive woman, so what the hell is his problem???? I called him out on it, I told him something is wrong between us and what did he think it was. His usual answer... I don't know. So I said is it medical or marital? In other words, do you not want to be with me, or is there something going on within you that diminishes your sexdrive or something. He insists its not marital...so I really want him to see a doctor. If he's telling me the truth...I don't know. Part of me wants to give up on us. But not get divorced. I know that sounds so provincial, but I would not want to divorce...I know how it effected me as a kid....I wouldn't want to put my kids through that.
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I'm excited for the weekend. Today was fun, took Riley to Jump N Play Gym which is like a big cushy playground for toddlers and babies. Very cool. and tomorrow I'm taking Morgan bowling, which we both really enjoy. then Saturday night meeting up with some friends from my mom's group. Sunday Morgan sings at church, and then my dad will come over and take us out to lunch. Not a bad weekend if you ask me!
Somewhere in between all that I'll try to clean my house and do some laundry!!
Off to bed.
Somewhere in between all that I'll try to clean my house and do some laundry!!
Off to bed.
My husband and I are not two of a kind, by any means. In fact we are quite opposite. And yes, I suppose opposites do attract...but then I think they can also repel in the long run. Not to say I find him repelling...just frustrating and annoying at times.
He's so very negative and grumpy all the time. In fact, many family members tease about what a grump he is. Well, its not much fun being married to the family grump. He's depressed and stressed, and sure he has things to be stressed and depressed about, sure, but he also has things in his life to be cheerful and appreciative for. We are blessed in many ways. And with more blessings, I believe God gives us also more responsiblity. A duty to become good stewards of the blessing that are given us.
My husband is not such a good steward. In fact, he's not really a planner at all. I want to make a family budget. He rather just live paycheck to paycheck, paying what we can, when we can. I've come to the point where I stay out of our financial affairs, because I don't wish to argue with him. And we disagree on parenting most times too. He's too hard on Morgan. Feels he needs to push him so that he'll "grow up." I say, just give him the love and support he needs, he's not going to want to be tucked in forever! I can't imagine him at 15 saying "Mom, could you come straigten out my blankets and tuck me in?" Not going to happen. He'll grow up when he's meant to. Ugh...men!
He's so very negative and grumpy all the time. In fact, many family members tease about what a grump he is. Well, its not much fun being married to the family grump. He's depressed and stressed, and sure he has things to be stressed and depressed about, sure, but he also has things in his life to be cheerful and appreciative for. We are blessed in many ways. And with more blessings, I believe God gives us also more responsiblity. A duty to become good stewards of the blessing that are given us.
My husband is not such a good steward. In fact, he's not really a planner at all. I want to make a family budget. He rather just live paycheck to paycheck, paying what we can, when we can. I've come to the point where I stay out of our financial affairs, because I don't wish to argue with him. And we disagree on parenting most times too. He's too hard on Morgan. Feels he needs to push him so that he'll "grow up." I say, just give him the love and support he needs, he's not going to want to be tucked in forever! I can't imagine him at 15 saying "Mom, could you come straigten out my blankets and tuck me in?" Not going to happen. He'll grow up when he's meant to. Ugh...men!
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Monday, 2/26
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Things are a little better. Ty and I are working through our issues and really trying to reconnect. I'm hoping things will keep going in a positive direction.
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