Journal Entry for January 8, 2009
January 8, 2009 2:09pm
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SadTime
is feeling OK
I'm feeling a bit better. Life since my husband died is just too painful at times.
Recently: 234 hugs given, 113 hugs received more …
About Me
I am a born-again Christian and not in anyway a "party animal". My husband died a few years ago but I feel very much married to him even now and do not date at anytime. I have now entered my 50's. I don't give out my measurements except to say I am average. I have a college education and am disabled - please see journal for more information on this. I enjoy my pets and garden. You may visit my homesite at http://mypeoplepc.com/members/jspr007/hereagain/index.html
Interests
My pets and garden along with DIY tasks of fixing up homes and related projects.
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Learning Through Pain
December 17, 2008 10:33pm
Posted January 3, 2009
I am the founder of our support group 'Issues'. You are welcome to stop by and visit anytime. …
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I'm sorry for all that you have been through. It sounds like it's been really awful. I had CFS for almost 3 years. It was a nightmare. I was lucky to find a doctor who had cured someone my boyfriend met. I'm glad that the treatment for a candida infection worked. I'm sorry for the loss of your husband. I agree that animals can be very comforting and loving presence's in our lives. Hugs, Maria
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Just a hug to make your day go a bit better
Flower
And some sweet-smelling flowers for you, my dear!
Ray of Sunshine
YOU WERE MY SUNSHINE OF THE DAY. BEFORE I READ YOUR MESSAGE I WAS FEELING DOWN ABOUT TODAY WITH ME CHEATING. YOU LIFT MY SPIRITS UP TAHNK YOU FOR THAT.I'M SENDING YOU SUNSHINE TO LET YOU ALSO KNOW THAT THERE WILL BE BRIGHTER DAYS AHEAD FOR YOU ASWELL.YOUR HUSBAND KNOWS HOW MUCH YOU LOVES HIM! HE WOULD WANT TO SEE YOU HAPPY THAN SAD AND IN PAIN. I KNOW IT'S HARD BUT THERE WILL BE BRIGHTER DAYS. YOU HAVE ALL MY LOVE AND SUPPORT
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Flower
AWW IM SO SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR HUSBAND. I KNOW THAT'S VERY PAINFUL TO DEAL WITH. I'M GLAD TO SEE THAT YOUR WELL BEING IS HETTING MUCH BETTER. I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU WHAT DON'T KILL YOU ONLY MAKES YOU STRONGER.
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Close Widows & Widowers
I have been widowed now for over five years. I am retired because of disability and am homebound most of the time. I have my pets and garden to bring happiness and joy into my life. I have suffered with severe major depression for the past few years. I am learning to re-connect with life. This is my home on the web http://mypeoplepc.com/members/jspr007/hereagain
Treatments
- Grief Counseling Not Working
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionMy husband died five years ago. I am a retired, disabled widow. My main disability is CFIDS - Chronic Fatigue Immune Dysfunction Syndrome. I have now been disabled with this for the past eleven years. I have developed major depression since my husband's death.
Treatments
- Prozac Somewhat Helpful
- I have been on Prozac for the past several years and I don't think it helps very much at times.
Open Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
I have been disabled with CFIDS for the past eleven years. Coping after the death of my husband five years ago has led to severe, secondary major depression. I take Adderall for the CFIDS and Prozac for the depression. I am now pretty much homebound because of the physical and mental disabiities. I use a cane and walker to get around. I use an electric scooter in the yard and garden. I have a power chair for when the muscle weakness becomes too severe to walk without falling alot.
Treatments
- Adderall Working / Worked
- This is the only medication that has helped at all with the extreme exhaustion of this CFIDS illness.
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Partner/SpouseHusband died in 2003 while I was recovering from emergency cancer surgery and going through chemotherapy along with our only child being hospitalized with leukemia. I can't say I'm doing better because I have been completely disabled with Chronic Fatigue Immune Syndrome for the past twelve years and now living alone makes coping with being stuck alone at home just a bit too much of a challange at times. I guess I'm doing better if feeling different over time is an improvement.
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- Getting Angry Considering
- Grief Counseling Not Working
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- Prayer Somewhat Helpful
- Remembering Somewhat Helpful
- Support Groups Not Working
- Time Somewhat Helpful
Open Family Issues
Since the death of my husband in 2003 I find living alone without any family as a disabled person in our society is not a pleasant situation. Many people have just assumed that I must like being stuck here alone all the time without even trying to understand what life as a disabled person alone is really like. I have my pets and garden that help me to feel good about this life. Major depression is secondary to my disability of Chronic Fatigue Immune Dysfunction Syndrome.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I now realize that the enormous stress of the 27 month battle I went through to receive my late husand's social security through the disabled widow's benefits program has left me with PTSD issues. I really was a very ugly, hurtful process. The incredible amounts of needless suffering I survived has caused my disability of Chronic Fatigue Immune Dysfunctions Syndrome to become even more severe to the place that I am often ill in bed for days at a time now.
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