small sums of basic
April 17, 2009 5:05pm
I have to laugh at times to how fucked it all is.
Theirs a point in life, that I"m not able to grasp.
I will never understand …
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aaron5
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About Me
aaron5
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About Me
I live in s.f. my daughter is staying with me while she is getting her life together. I have a six year old son who comes every other weekend. I'm having trouble going to work. I just make my bills and am not finding reasons to move forward. I go up and down all day. I have always been the person people came to for advise. I still am I just don't want to do my job or go out to much unless its to eat or go to the park or walking. I was doing better about six months ago walking eating right going to work and then I met my girlfriend started having fun and then went down again. I live the life of Ryely according to my friends.
I live in s.f. my daughter is staying with me while she is getting her life together. I have a six year old son who comes every other weekend. I'm having trouble going to work. I just make my bills and am not finding reasons to move forward. I go up and down all day. I have always been the person people came to for advise. I still am I just don't want to do my job or go out to much unless its to eat or go to the park or walking. I was doing better about six months ago walking eating right going to
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The pursuit of love. Laughing until I can't breath. Keeping people on track around me. Always being there for my friends and loved ones. finding new ways to feel better.
The pursuit of love. Laughing until I can't breath. Keeping people on track around me. Always being there
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April 17, 2009 4:20pm
I leave for a few, and most of my friends are gone.
oh well its to be …
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I wish I knew....
July 31, 2008 2:38pm
What keeps me going.
I woke up and relized I'm not dead, and havent been thinking about it so much latley.
There have been some stressfull …
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I think I'm comming in to the last days.
June 26, 2008 3:09pm
I can't go on like this much longer.
I'm tired and drained.
I gave up on blameing, others, myself.
There just comes a time when you have to let …
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the worst part of life
June 2, 2008 11:49am
I can't take care of the one that stood by me, she must live in her dreams.
As I battel my sadness for not being the man I could be.
I was …
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I hope you are still out there. I am saying a prayer for you and your family now.
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aaron,I am sending you hugs and cuddles to help support you ,I have just finished reading your profile..and I know the feeling only too well, I was always the person people came to ..and still do ..I know all the advice I give they accept and act upon ..so why is it that I find it difficult to act upon that same advice I would give ... take care hugsssssssssssss and cuddlessssssss love and light lorretta xx
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Flowers from my garden to your home, hope they brigten your day, they are roses and lillies, (that's about all that grew well this year) but I picked the good ones for you.
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I'm so sorry you went thru all that. I know pain all too well. I messaged you a while back, I am taking a short trip to SF, it's only about 650 miles to there from here, Seattle. I am headed out 1 week from tomorrow, I see my surgeon next Thurs, the next morning headed to SF. I'll message you later. I am so glad you found a doc. that understands, seeems none of them understand. I'm going thru that issue right now. I spent all night in the ER, I passed a kidney stone, nothing new for me, I had surgery on my left kidney year ago. I hope to hear from you. And please message me any time you'd like. -Melinda
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Are you doing ok? I have not heard anything from you. I care. Please let me know that you are okay. Thanks. Melinda
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Close Depression
Type: Seasonal Affective DisorderI have been in and out of Depression for about five years. In the last year I have been off all Depression medications. I'm currently taking vicodin and valum for my back and neck. At times I'm able to lower the dosage if I walk at least 3 miles 4 days a week. At one point I was walking 7 miles a day with one day off a week. Then I meet a girl and it all went down hill from there. It has nothing to do with her she is nice drug free I just think I'm not ready to make the commitment to another
Treatments
- Meditation Considering
- going back to sitting Zazen but has been a long time and not sure if thats what I'm looking for in my life right now.
- Positive Thinking Too Soon to Tell
- Been looking at the secret videos on you tube that my daughter has showed me but have been there before and feel its too used car sales for me.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Got me back to myself a little faster. Thought the therapists was to co dependent on me instead of the other way around.
- Wellbutrin Somewhat Helpful
- Felt too good more than I wanted too. Not interested in using any more drugs at this time. The meds for my back and neck pain are enough at this time for my body to handle.
- Zoloft Not Working
- did not work for me felt low energy could not think at a normal speed
Close Family Issues
I can't talk or see my father. I can't find a way.
Treatments
- Family Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- with my wives I attended and it worked in some areas.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- I have always listen to music calms me down and takes me away.
- Talking Considering
- I'm going to try to start using this site.
