reddutchgirl's Journal

I got to spend some time in my garden yesterday morning, surprise, surprise.  It is producing nicely despite the fact that it is overridden by weeds.  I did two more rows and at one point had to stop and just lay on my back to rest as I was getting dizzy.  Well I freaked my poor neighbor out.  He came running and calling.  I jumped up and he yelled at me not to do that to him ever again.  I asked, "What?  Take a break?"  He has be doing some research on my conditions and the poor thing thought I had stopped breathing because of the MG.  I told him I was sorry and I would not lay down to rest anymore.  It is very nice to have kind and caring neighbors.  Gotta love the country life.

The hawks and blackbirds were calling as if to say, "Nice to see you back outside enjoying nature."  It was too.  Even though I was pulling weeds taller than the plants, it was nice to breath the fresh air and listen to the birds.  When I had enough I went inside, such a change from who I was even last year.  Last year I wouldn't have quite til the whole thing was done, but a lot of things have changed from last year.  I have learned not to overdo it and I got a nice new long list of diseases.  That's it.  I'm packing a lunch and hiking up Roan this weekend.  I will take long breaks and try not to overdo it, but I'm making it up that mountain.  It is the best place I have ever felt, yep I said felt, in my life.  The vibrations are wonderful and must be a good match for mine.  I used to hike it most days with my departed boxer, Butch, this time it will have to be Vesta.  Macy and I have an issue on our walks.  She and I have butted heads since I got this dog from the pound.  She thinks she should be the leader, wrong answer.  Vesta is pretty good on a leash, but needs more training.  At least she listens to me. 

I may be kidding myself with this MG rearing it's ugly head, but that is my wish for the weekend.  I will write it down and put it in my wish box and hope that it comes true. 

The hubby got a book on massage and has given me one every night before I go to bed and I can't believe how much it is helping the stiffness.  I no longer feel like Frankenstein walking in the morning.  Sense of humor returning, good sign.  I think the storm clouds have lifted.  I think my husband is pretty great to read about and massage me, I'm a pretty lucky woman.  I know that we have had a few downs lately, but what marriage doesn't?  He has to watch me suffer, I'm so glad that it is not the other way around.  I don't think I could watch him suffer, I sure wouldn't want to anyway. 

I'm trying to think more positive and find more beauty and it is helping, but that was a scary few weeks when I couldn't see any beauty.  Find any joy.  I'm pretty positive that there will be more periods like that in my life, but at least I can remember that I made it thru. 

Hope you all have a wonderful holiday weekends, at least my American friends.  Those not on holiday, may it feel like one.  May you all see the beauty and find the joy  Much love, peace and courage,  Kim