reddutchgirl's Journal

After yesterday's vent, I feel so much better; not great, but better.  Plus I had enough time to clean some of the house, still some work to do there.  I'm so grateful for journals, I had to get out that anger and negative energy in me before it festers and causes more damage.  Of course I didn't get it all out, but it was enough to deal with for now.  You really do just have to get it out sometimes.  Have a nice yell at the top of your lungs (if alone and there is noone for miles) and make it a nice long one.  While doing so, imagine all the negative energy leaving your body being sent into the ground with the help of the Archangel Michael, or whomever you use for protection, the energy turns to a golden dust and changes to positive energy to help the universe.  It is a very nice release. 

A word about the journals, most of the time I leave mine open to share my life with chronic disease.  I close some for private reasons.  These journals are a place for us to put our thoughts, emotions, or just share information.  I write in a journal to clear my head and hopefully some of what I have written will help others on their journey.  I'm sure that someone could use some of my entries as a form of insanity, but life is full of ups and downs and if you are honestly human then your journals will look similiar.  Of course not all of you use the journal on DS as I do and yours will be very different.    My point in all of this is that this is MY journal for MY thoughts.  I will be happy to answer any questions to clarify anything written, but if you want to use this material to throw stones then I think that is wrong. 

We say that we shouldn't judge and usually I'm the one stating this fact the loudest, but the point is we do judge.  We do it everyday and when doin in the point of analyzing personal closeness of any type, it is a normal and necessary thing to do.  You may judge by my journals that I am not the type of person you would like to know, that is fine.  We share for the simple fact of sharing, for guidance, to give guidance and because some things are easier to work out in this manner.

I don't feel as angry today by any degree.  There is still the negativity and other things I must deal with, all in good time.  I'm dealing with enough disease issues right now.  I think I will just rest today after taking my son to Fun Adventure for getting a good boy sticker at school every day this summer.  I'm so proud of him.  I just wished he behaved that way at home all the time.  I learned in one of my child psych classes that they do this because they feel most comfortable around us and it is stress relieving for them.  Isn't being a mom just great? lol  I wouldn't trade it for the world. 

Gotta run. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend full of laughter and much love.   Kim