I am firstly a christian, secondly a painter, thirdly a sister. i have alot of family issues, mostly coming from my parents. my mom is bipolar and is a constant source of chaos in my life. my dad has been very emotionaly and verbaly abusive and manipulative. i have what feels like an endless list of bad relationships stalking me and im just here trying to figure out how to live my life the best i can with the cards i was given. and so far i feel that ive done a pretty good job, i have some really great friends and i have an amazing support network going. but i know that things could be better, so im waiting for the day the chaos ends and the constant stream of abuse subsides. hmm maybe i have to grab that day for myself? But am i brave enough to turn my back on my life and choose something diffrent then what was given to me? And what happens when i take control and my life is finaly my own, who do i blame the bad days on then? Basicaly im finding that growing up is scary as hell, and is a long painful process and more or less sucks ass. but i also know that though there is a long list of things that i am, i am NOT a victum of circumstance. and i will survive anything that happens to me, because thats the kind of person i want to be.
I am firstly a christian, secondly a painter, thirdly a sister. i have alot of family issues, mostly coming from my parents. my mom is bipolar and is a constant source of chaos in my life. my dad has been very emotionaly and verbaly abusive and manipulative. i have what feels like an endless list of bad relationships stalking me and im just here trying to figure out how to live my life the best i can with the cards i was given. and so far i feel that ive done a pretty good job, i have some really
i have about a thousand and one interests. most of all i love love love painting and drawing, im constantly creating something. when ever i cant calm myself down or am just really upset then ill grab my sketch pad and just run outside. i also love writing poetry, its how i get the poison out of my body and deal with all the crap in my life. i dont know what id do without it. reading is the best, i love getting sucked into other peoples worlds, it reminds me that im not alone despite how lonely i feel sometimes. and i love all my classes at school, mostly because i just like learning new shit. psychology is my favorite though, and someday im going to get my masters degree in art thereapy. i just discovered philosophy and i love that to, im definaly planning on takeing some classes on it in college. i love being outside, i can walk for miles and miles and never get tired so im a great hiker. i think thunderstoms are the best things ever... theres nothing more beautiful :)
i have about a thousand and one interests. most of all i love love love painting and drawing, im constantly
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I believe in the sun even when its not shining. i believe in love even when...…
February 18, 2009 1:46am
Today was insanly frustrating for me, productive, but god im not doing very well with keeping my paticients with my mom. but i just cant help it …
February 17, 2009 2:33am
LIFE IS SO WEIRD. i dont even know the words to describe what im feelng righ now. confusion i guess?? yeah lots of confusion
theres more guy trouble …
January 16, 2009 8:26pm
Look At Me!!
I sit here watching my world burn
As a snake coils its self around my thoughts
Waiting for the first vague reference
To …
December 1, 2008 8:03pm
I want to take a knife strait to my brain
I hate how your voice is always in my head
telling me stories about us
making it impossible to move …
November 17, 2008 10:05am
well im 17 now
my dad didnt wish me happybirthday
theres more to it than that but i dont have time or energy right now
there was lots of …
I'm not sure if the l;ack of exciting things is a good or bad thing. Hard to be sure. I'm glad you went to the dance. I knew you would enjoy it. I'm glad you met some new people. That is definatly a bonus.
No problem. I hate how people do that. It just isn't fair. I think you should just go to the dance anyways and have a good time. That should help you feel better. I am doing ok. Life is alright. Nothing to exciting happening to me.
I am also learning that growing up is a painful process. I hope things are going alright for you. Let me know if you want to talk.
My mom just this past week was sent to the hospital for bipolar with psychosis. It is so in depth it seems you can never explain it to anyone but yourself - almost afraid no one would believe you? That's how I'm feeling.
i'm doing pretty well. things are doing kinda alright for me. how are you?
My mom has bipolar disorder, i live with her and my little sister holly in our crappy little apartment. i've only just recently (a year ago) been told about my moms illness even though i've been living with the side affects for as long as i can remember. only in the last two weeks has she been on medication. everyons telling me that things are getting better but its so hard to belive. i've been hurting for so long its all i know.
well theres not much to say, i have a boyfriend, i think he's great, i needed a place to talk about things i cant really talk to my friends about.
i'm sixteen and i live alone with my bp mom, wat else can i really say
my mom is bipolar and she was very very depressed for the past year. she seems to be back on her feet for the time being but the past year has left me feeling very depressed and alone
