Journal Entry for November 16, 2009
November 16, 2009 12:05am
ive thought of a bunch of painless ways to get out of here but i'm still scared that i'll end up in hell. my entire body is hurting right now …
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11:58pm, November 15, 2009
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Journal Entry for November 15, 2009
November 15, 2009 11:59pm
i cant do it. i am worthless and incapable and all i am strong enough to do is sleep
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Journal Entry for October 14, 2009
October 14, 2009 1:21pm
i just want to be able to concentrate on school. crying every hour on the hour is distracting. im tired of being sad and lonely. im tired of nobody …
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Journal Entry for July 28, 2009
July 28, 2009 12:53am
i got a puppy. she makes me smile. she makes all of us smile. even my dad. when he walks in from work and sees her his whole face lights up. he hasnt …
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Hey there how are you? hope you are well......
Ray of Sunshine
when the pain hits and u feel all alone just press on. it will get better. during your darkest hours, u will see the light come after. ok have a great week! i am here if u need me. keep the faith. have patience and everything will be alright.
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I so wish I could be of help sweetie. I had a mean mother as well and she always criticized us and made me do all her chores and than tell my dad that I would sit on my ass all day while she worked so hard. She was so evil that I actually tried to kill her once. I was also in an abusive relationship for 3 years and he was crazy. I got pregnant with my daughter at 19 and he didn't want her. It's such a long and detailed story, but I am giving the short one here. He tried to kill us both and than took off. I met my brothers best friend who was in the Army and had a crush on me for awhile. He so wasn't my type but I gave him a chance cause my luck with the guys that I was choosing wasn't the greatest. So, I dated him for 2 weeks and he proposed to me and I said yes. I did like him but I also wanted to marry him cause I knew it was a way out of my house. I seriously didn't want to raise my daughter there with my parents. But, yeah, I basically had to find a way to get out of there. He was very sweet and wonderful and I so wasn't used to that, but it worked out anyway and I fell in love with him. Deeply. It can happen and things will get better girl. I know it doesn't look like that now, but pray and just wait and watch. You gotta believe just a little bit. Take each day one day at a time. I know it must suck. I am always here if you need to talk. ((((Hugs))) Lisa~
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Thanks for the picture comment.... so hows everything going? =)
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Goal End Date is Dec 31, 08 327 days ago.Current Weight (Lbs)150 -
Support Groups
Close Psoriasis
Affected Areas: Psoriasis of the Skinit hurts alot. and its only geting worse
Treatments
- Clobetasol Somewhat Helpful
- used olux and clobex shampoo
- Coal Tar Not Working
- used it at the beginning
- Phototherapy Working / Worked
- eh
- Triamcinolone Topical Somewhat Helpful
- i don't feel like it's strong enough
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionTreatments
- Prozac Not Working
- i forget to take it because it doesn't affect me enough to remember that i need it. it's not enough
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- they don't even care
Open TMJ
history: jaw was not aligned and it was painful at times. clicking and teeth didn't meet. had corrective surgery. my nervous muscle movements and teeth clenching broke the plate and my jaw was hanging in my mouth for a week before i had a second surgery. then i did it again a few months later and had a 3rd surgery. a year later i feel like it's moving back over again. wake up every morning mouth wont open. my jaw pops in and out when i eat & speak & it's paintful
Treatments
- Physical Therapy Considering
- Surgery Somewhat Helpful
- i dont even know if there was a point.
Open Healthy Relationships
when i'm even SLIGHTLY offended or hurt.. i get extremely vicious. i push everyone away constantly.
Treatments
Open Abstinence & Celibacy
rediculously confused when it comes to this issue. thought i knew but now i don't.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
extremely difficult for me to talk about this
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- Leave Working / Worked
- not permanently, just when it gets bad
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- i don't know
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Anxiety
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- Breathing Exercises Not Working
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Prozac Somewhat Helpful
- Risperdal Somewhat Helpful
Open Tourette Syndrome & Tic Disorders
muscle twitching
Treatments
- Risperdal Somewhat Helpful
- gained weight so they took me off of it. and now i'm miserable and nobody is doing anything about it.
Open Anger Management
i get EXTREMELY violent and vicious over the simplest things
Open Prescription Drug Abuse
anything i can get my hands on i finished my vicodin from surgery and i started working through my dads, but i stopped because he'll notice. i'm in the process of looking for more. i haven't told anyone this i really don't think i'm bad so i'm not worry yet i know i shouldn't be doing it though
Open ADHD / ADD
i was diagnosed yesterday!! apparantly i had it EXTREMELY bad.. and they put me on medication right away. i dont remember what its called.. i took the first pill this morning,
Open Family & Friends of Cancer Patients
my father and grandfather both have cancer
Open Eating Disorders
i binge often also ofte starve myself when im upset i.. force myself to get things back up constantly thinking about food
Open Scoliosis
its not terrible, but its there, and its effecting me i have pain all over my body caus im off balance its not immediately noticeable but idk
Open High Cholesterol
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- Fish Oil Working / Worked
- Flax Working / Worked
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- Willpower Working / Worked
Open Accidents
grkgirl hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Rape
someone i dont even know took my virginity without my consent less than 48 hours ago, i am in alot of pain phyiscally and much more so emotionally
Open Marijuana Addiction & Recovery
grkgirl hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Bipolar Disorder
being treated for bipolar disorder with some medication that basically just seems to be making my twitching 234 times worse and my psoriasis as well.. and also is turning me into a cold emotionless person. and not helping my impulsivitiy at all
