Been Gone awhile
April 8, 2009 4:16pm
I finally finished my college courses back in Dec. with a shocking 3.80 GPA!! Unfortunately I did not get the job I was after upon completion …
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Guswestaferd
5:07pm, August 4, 2008
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About Me
Guswestaferd
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About Me
I'm a hard headed sort at times -- especially during my years of using. my drug of choice started as Alcohol which I started using when I was around 14. After 2 decades of just this, I tried coke and unfortunately liked it too. It seemed great-- drink all day , then snort a big ol line to sober up.... Hey let's play with the different ways of using coke -thats what my mind thought. keep drinking -- have shot up, snorted, smoked, just about every way, trying to feed the monster. Well I have 2 years, 1 month, and 16 days clean and sober as of 4/8/08.
I'm a hard headed sort at times -- especially during my years of using. my drug of choice started as Alcohol which I started using when I was around 14. After 2 decades of just this, I tried coke and unfortunately liked it too. It seemed great-- drink all day , then snort a big ol line to sober up.... Hey let's play with the different ways of using coke -thats what my mind thought. keep drinking -- have shot up, snorted, smoked, just about every way, trying to feed the monster. Well I have 2 years,
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Have returned to church. Bringing God back into my is the best thing ever!!! I enjoy the Country, the woods, the wildlife. Anything (almost) that has tdo dowith the great outdoors!!
Have returned to church. Bringing God back into my is the best thing ever!!! I enjoy the Country, the
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Journal Entry for September 19, 2008
September 19, 2008 12:03pm
Its been a bit hectic this semester -- more things to learn, more to do. Don't know where the time goes!! Find it harder to find …
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Baby steps
September 2, 2008 7:48am
Slowly but surely I'm getting thru this year of school. Finished the 2nd semester with a 4.0!!! gives me comfort and drive to …
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Journal Entry for August 8, 2008
August 8, 2008 4:10pm
Well the next week or so should be interesting-- Mom is up from Vegas visiting. Not that I don't want to see her-- its just the show that …
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Journal Entry for August 4, 2008
August 4, 2008 5:17pm
OOOH! AHHH!! The thrill of the rollercoaster ride--- it's fun for the first feww times, but it soon gets sickening. I am ready to get …
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Hope everything is going well for you. I'm sending a summer rainbow to brighten your day. Take care...
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Thank you for the support and words of encouragement. Yes, with God and friends all things are possible. Take care and keep in touch... Eve
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Hi there. Hope things are going well with you. Sorry I haven't been around much. You know how it is when work takes over. Thinking and praying for all of you though. Have a great weekend. Eve
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Coffee Corner Cafe drive by hugging. "To forgive is the highest, most beautiful form of love. In return, you will receive untold peace and happiness."--Robert Muller "Keep coming back"
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Coffee corner cafe drive by hugging. "Born to be wild - live to outgrow it." Lao Tzu "Keep Coming Back!"
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Close Alcoholism
Long story- same as most -- started in my pre-teens with beer found I liked the effect it produced. Occassionally played around with pot, but found that Amphetamines were a better buzz. Fly all day, use my beer to help me land at nite.Took time off drugs for 8yrs., yet continued Alcohol. In the mid '90s was introduced to Coke. Great Stuff.. Drink all day then snort a fat line of Coke to sober up enough to drink the rest of the night. I'm thankful my God looks after drunks & fools(I am both)!!
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- After 20 - 25 years of drinking, something I can only describe as God's Grace said t"Enough is Enough". There were no cravings, no withdrawl, no adverse reactions. Didn't want to give up t"people, places and things" in the beginning but soon saw these were not what they appeared to be. So at 40 y/o, I started life anew!!
- Outpatient Treatment Program Working / Worked
- Was out of work on a comp injury, and had to toake a drug test to return to work-- tested Positive for Coke!! As a condition set by my employer, I had to enter and complete OP treatment of Coke( wasonly an occassional use thing --aggravated by alcoholism. Did not have desire yet to quick drinking
Close Anxiety
I am a 43 year old recovering polysubstance abuser (alcoholic / cocaine) who has been blessed with Anxiety and Depression. Lucky me -- I also have self-esteem issues!!
Treatments
- BuSpar Somewhat Helpful
- Lexapro Somewhat Helpful
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Seems to work well, yet I still have the bad days!
Open Depression
Oh Yes. On top of everything else, I my real battle has always been Depression. The drus, the booze --- all things I used to cope.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Working / Worked
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- Prozac Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- If my therapist would have done therapy and not catch up on her charting things might have been better
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- YUCKY!! Bad side effects Bad Medicine!!!
- Writing Working / Worked
- I actually kept a journal in the '80's. Most was writtenn in fits of drunken stupor
