angelsfly's Journal

JUlY  21  2009   will go down in the back of my MIND as the day a Miracle may just become what I have been fighting for all along.    But I am so afraid that it wont come true.    Details are very skectchy even to me.    But it seems that my Lawyer has been working on my SSI  case with quite a bit of effort on HIS PART>  He said that  the Judge is going to make a decision quite soon and he feels that it may be a favorable decision for me.   When he told me this I almost did not beleave him.    But I got a letter from the Judge saying he is going to make a decision very soon.  It did sound like perhaps this time my lawyer may have done  some overtime on my case.   I am writing this down because I cant beleave it.    I have been denied so many times now.    It just seems so impossible that perhaps this time I will get my benefits????    I am gong to PRAY  like I have never PRAYED  in my lifetime.  I have not been online much these days.    I was visiting with my newphew who came to visit.    I had not seen him in months.   Im glad that he passed to the 8th grade even if he did have to go to summer school to achiecve this.   He is going to turn 13 next month in Aug.    I already got him a gift.     Can you tell he is my fav    nephew.     He is tall handsome and going to be  really a heartbreaker with all the girls I just know it.    He is alot like my brother who is his father.     Im so sorry If I have not been online very often.    The computer has a mind of its own sometimes.     But I just write in this journal sometimes.    I know I have not been the best friend to everyone.     My depression took over.    I am on Prozac now for the last coupel of weeks.     So maybe I will come on line more often.    I need to go PRAY now that my lawyer comes through for me on my SSI claim.    This time it just might happen.   If it does not I will write about it here.    I will let everyone know what turns up.    Sorry for becoming so lazy about comming online.    Depression does this to me.     But now I have been giving some hope.      HOPE>>>>>that one little thing that makes waking up each day worth it.   Love to you all ..........................Mary