angelsfly's Journal

March 30th  Its a Monday.     Last week on Thursday through Friday we got a blizzard here.    After no snow all of Dec and Jan and Feburary now that its spring.   Now we get snow??? 20inches of it and lots of wind.     My father had his cateract removed up in Pueblo.    Then this blizzard hit and they had to stay in Pueblo until Friday.     Now he is home finally.   But he is not following the doctors instructiions.   He was not suppose to drive.....hes driving.     He was not suppose to lift anything....he is lifting.    He is suppose to wear these dark shades to go outside.    You guessed it he isnt waring them.    SO  I yelled at him.    But does he listen.   NO.  So if he goes blind in that eye its going to be his own reponsibleity thats how I see it.    He is the most stuborn and stupid man on the planet earth.      I am suppose to go to Pueblo for a physical on Saturday.   For the SSI disability.   Here is my problem.     My sister said she might be able to take me up to Pueblo for this doctors apt.     Only now she is not sure she can????????      Plus its suppose to snow again on that same Saturday badly.    The weatherman is saying it might be a significant snow day.   Well if it is going to snow that day I may just call and have them reschudule that pyhysical for me until later.    Im not sure that I will be able to go since my sister is giving me mixed sighnals about the fact that maybe she can take me to this doctors apt.    So I guess I will wait until Friday and see what happens.    I have not been much in a mood to keep writing in this here journal.   Since I know that I dont have that many friends who actually read it anyhow.    I have been having lots of pain.    I  did something I shuld not have done.    I shoveled snow after the blizzard.    yes   I know I should not have done this but I did it anyhow and now my back hurts quite a bit.    I just spent the entire weekend laying down in bed becaise it hurt so badly.     I wish that I dint have so much pain.    It affects every aspect of my day and my life.    Its with me all the time.   No matter how many pills I take or how long I lay down for.   Every day I wake up and I feel like a 60 yr old woman.     Bye for now.