Ferugalat's Journal

I just finished watching The Fifth Element.  I watched it many years ago but was drug addled, and pretty sure I never saw the end.  Its nice.  Love is the answer.  We are all part of God and just maybe there is hope for everyone.  Love is my best guess, besides, they will eat everything else.  Perhaps I'm over tired.  I haven't tried the white light thing yet.  I woke up anxious in a way this morning.  Not personally stressed, but with an unsettled brain.  None of the horror movies I watched all afternoon seemed to help much.  Now I'm watching a documentary about witches.  They are talking about Goddesses and the patriarchy.  No new information there for me.  I researched it in depth as a youngster.  I brought up the inquisition with some nuns the other day god bless em.  In my staff self care meeting, the shelter staff brought up the issue of women over 40 having few prospects and being shut out of society.  In my ecocult meeting I brought it up also and brought up the historical precedent of the inquisition as an efficient method to get rid of society's 'burdens'.  Many things are changing though.  Another subject I have studied in depth is violence.  Men have historically been burdened with violence.  We all get so fucked up, thats just the system.  Its up to us to do something with the broken pieces.   To make it stronger, like when muscles in our body break down to rebuild.  We are getting smarter, because we see the flaws in the system.  More than ever people are struggling out of the system.  I guess the self destruction of the system may be part of a larger system/pattern.  God bless us all.  The moon is staring at me through my window. 

Love.

I suppose I'll try the white light thing and get to sleep in a minute.