hevy's Journal

Well, went to first counseling session last night with W. It was supposed to be more of an initial assessment, but the couselor said we told her more in one hour than most do in 5-6 sessions.

When she first asked us each if we were 100% on saving our marriage, the W said yes right away, and like a foot in mouth jerk, I said I was not sure if I was 100% or not. That was pretty much how it started. Anyhow, we told her the root of the reason why we were there. The counselor also recommended that W be seen for depression, as it was obvious to the counselor that W needed that. But, overall, it went ok. After we left, the W and I sat in the car for over an hour talking. She was upset that I didn't immediately commit to 100%, and I don't blame her. But, after some talking about things, I told her that I would give 100%. What an anniversary (#24), can't say that we've had one like that before, and I don't want another like it. We did end up going to dinner (rather late), went home and talked a bit more. Layed in bed, just holding each other. At first I kinda wanted sex, but I didn't ask or indicate, and after laying there, I realized it was just nice to have her close to me.

I hope it's a good start.