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arihanna 
3:32pm Wednesday
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Well, Ty is still here, Sunday 9/20 was when he turned 2 months 9 days old. I struggled thru Saturday and the morning on Sunday, 11:21 hit and I cried my eyes out that was the time Ari was prounced gone. On friday he had his 2 month check up @ 2 months 7 days old, Ty now weighs 12 lbs 6 oz, he is 24 1/2 inches long. He only got 2 of the 4 vaccines, we were a bit nervous about him getting them at all, Ari passed away 2 days after her 2 month vaccinations, the vaccines don't have anything to do with SIDS, but we couldn't help but to be nervous, so he will go every month to get 2 vaccines until he is 8 months old. He is going on Tuesday for therapy for his neck and they found that he has a heart murmur so we will be going to the Cardiologist on Friday. I am kind of freaking out about the murmur, Julianna & Bubba has heart murmurs, but they caught them right at birth, Ty's they thought they heard it when he was born but then they didn't at his 2 day check up, they heard it they didn't hear it at his 1 month appt, but they did at this last appointment, so I am a bit worried about him. We just love his so much!! After that emotional roller coaster, I am now doing much better, looking forward to a long life with my baby boy, he is such a blessing and we are so gracious that Ari sent us the perfect baby brother!
Baby girl I thank you so much for watching over your baby brother, I know you hand selected him for us, and he is just the perfect little addition. He bring us so much joy and happiness. I still miss you every minute of every day, I always think about what you would be doing if you were still here, my heart has an Ari shaped hole in it that will never be filled, I love and miss you so much baby girl.
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Today is my last day of maternity leave...I am kind of freaking out!!! I really don't want to return, I go to the doc's this afternoon and once they release me I am back to work..I am not really mentally prepared to leave Baby Ty..ahhh I feel like I am going to throw up. I have only been away from Ty for no more than a couple hours...even though my mom will be watching him, I just don't feel ready. I need more time off, I am going to talk to my doc today and see what he can do to give me a couple more weeks!! Anyone else have back to work issues?? I am having serious panic attacks today..I have never been his nervous about going back to work. I really wish T was healthy so I could just stay at home, but with his health being up and down we need something to fall back on. This day has been creeping up on me and now that it's finally here...I am taking it alot worse then I anticipated....I am freaking out!!!!!!!!
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I wish you didn't have to go back to work, but atleast ty will be with your mom. Is there anyway you could start back part time or half days for the first week? I'm sure they would understand if you just had to call and check up on him every hour!!! I'll be thinking of you today and hoping you don't have to go back.....don't you feel a cough coming on??LOL
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sorry sweetie! i'm sure your doc will give you more time!
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Aw, hon!! I'm sorry......going back to work is so hard!! Hopefully your doc can buy you some more time!!
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I'm hoping for you...just beg the doc!
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Cash!! lots of cash!!!. i'm sorry hon
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I'd nut up and flip out for the doc...good luck love ya
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Here's an update: I was pretty calm and I went in told the nurse, who I have dealt with for years that I wanted to take more time off...so then the doc came in, she was just asking simple questions then she asked do I feel depressed or overwhelmed and I said yes, then we talked about that and she asked me some more questions, and told me that I have post partum depression and they are going to put me on Zoloft....so they want me to take a couple more weeks off to see how the meds work!!!! I guess I am relieved, I think taking something for my depression will help, and I get the bonus of taking more time off.
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Is there any way you can work from home?
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I am really shocked you gave him any shots at all after what you went through!! You are a lot braver than I!!! Justin is 15 months and is not and will not be vaccinated after the research I did.I am so glad little Ty is ok and he will be!! I remember feeling the panic when Justin reached the age Owen was when he passed-it terrified me for weeks-it was almost hard to enjoy having a little baby again but I still did.
I am very happy God blessed your family with another perfect child!!
JoleneL
I love ya honey! I was scared to get Evers shots too, but I know how important these vaccines are. We have to keep our lil ones well. She only got 2 this time as well. We are being cautious but our doc has reassured us about alot of things!
LaylaF
Truly, to each is own in the vaccines....Rissa had one after birth....we are waiting and it has nothing to do with SIDS whatsoever....it has to do with my older son and the reactions he had.....she will be vaccinated, just older....there are diseases that can be fatal without vaccines....LOVE YOU!
NickNicksmommykitkat
Yes vaccines are a personal choice. Everything is scary when you live in this "new normal". I'm sorry you had such an emotional night. You are such a wonderful mommy. Kiss that sweet baby for me.
nanny99
aww, HUGS!
brandylee82
Oh honey - you just have to do what is good for you. Just think one more milestone down. Has to be a relief. Now your next one will be when he has his 1st bday. Things are just so much harder after the loss we have all had. Hang in there and know we are all there for you!
Fantonme
Hugs!
wandersjewell
BIG BIG HUGS Mama!! Anisah is getting her shots on Thursday im so worried about it! But Everything will work out!
Akisha