Journal Entry for July 19, 2009
well things are going ok. I graduated and am now going to school at Santa Monica, CA. i'm pretty excited to get out and go somewhere different …
i'm currently trying to heal through all this and stay positive as well. i have lot's of friends and just love to have fun. my friends best describe me as random. but i love it. i'm humble and careing and will try and help anyone the best i can. i just only ask for that in return.
i'm currently trying to heal through all this and stay positive as well. i have lot's of friends and just love to have fun. my friends best describe me as random. but i love it. i'm humble and careing and will try and help anyone the best i can. i just only ask for that in return.
i love singing, music, dancing, running, walks, nature, my pets, friends, basketball, cross country and track.
i love singing, music, dancing, running, walks, nature, my pets, friends, basketball, cross country and
well things are going ok. I graduated and am now going to school at Santa Monica, CA. i'm pretty excited to get out and go somewhere different …
well my mom told me bout a week ago that we were going broke. I'm getting a job but idk when i'll be able to start cuz it's more of a job …
um everything is going ok....wish i could cut but i wont. tomorrow i have a date to have sex...i was doing good with not having sex with ppl i hardly …
here is just a lil run down on what's been going on in my life. well i am still going to counseling every two weeks and it has been going really …
well idk if mason moved out or not, but he left today and mom and dad said they were kicking him out. idk y this time him being here was so hard but …
i was abused by my oldest brother from when i was almost 8 to when i was 12. and i was abused by my other brother for about a year or less and two of his friends
after i told what happend i stoped eating. it has gotten better, someday's i feel "normal" but there are many day's where i dont eat.
i started cutting because i wanted to make the pain go away and it felt good
i just get really sad somedays and i don't even want to get out of bed. i think of suide alot. almost ever time i drive my car i want to drive off the road. i just want to be loved
by brother is over in iraq
my mind is alway's going and always thinking of the next thing
my counselor said i had this. makes sence i guess
i sprained both my ankels in the same year, actually a few month's apart.
two kid's from my school died this year.
one of my best friend's sister passed away this morning, august 2nd, 2007. she has been sick since she was in 6th grade and has faught it this long. she was a very sweet and caring persone and i miss her already!
don't understand my body
idk who i like anymore
my abuse took place mostly at night so that's has caused me troublems falling asleep and staying asleep. i am scared to sleep.