Update
March 7, 2009 12:04am
Just wanted to write a quick note to myself. I forgot how I used to like this site but now I dont have access to a computer. …
Progress
30 %
Goal End Date is Jun 15, 08 528 days ago.
strawberrydawn
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About Me
strawberrydawn
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About Me
I am a 33 year old, single woman with one child. I am a recovering alcoholic and compulsive gambler. I do have other addictions which are not being treated at the moment inc. my smoking and over-eating. I believe my main issue to be depression, I believe my addictions to be symptoms of this and not the other way around. I have been living with my mother since the end of a ten year relationship three years ago. I ended up severely depressed and mentally ill. I am just now slowly climbing back out of the pit. I had lost all hope...went through some of the worst crap in my life (and if you know me, thats saying a lot). I want to get better now. I long for TRUE happiness. I no longer want to be just a survivor.
I am a 33 year old, single woman with one child. I am a recovering alcoholic and compulsive gambler. I do have other addictions which are not being treated at the moment inc. my smoking and over-eating. I believe my main issue to be depression, I believe my addictions to be symptoms of this and not the other way around. I have been living with my mother since the end of a ten year relationship three years ago. I ended up severely depressed and mentally ill. I am just now slowly climbing back out
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Interests
reading, writing, coffee, sleeping, music, friends, older movies, beading, crocheting...all during my "good" days of course
reading, writing, coffee, sleeping, music, friends, older movies, beading, crocheting...all during my
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Journal
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Life is a miracle!!
November 30, 2008 1:51am
I had my baby! I am so happy and so grateful. I am also very tired. I am trying to adjust to all of this new change. I have had 2 relapses since I …
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Still making it!!
August 18, 2008 7:42pm
Well I am done about 5 weeks of school and I am still here!! It has been surprisingly easy.. i had one rough spot with a gambling relapse but my …
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First day of school
July 14, 2008 8:10am
I go to my first day of classes as of 8 this morning. Its still hard to believe. I am nervous as hell but overall not too bad. I am slightly excited …
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Still moving forwards
July 6, 2008 4:13pm
Well, still trying to get over my last gambling relapse. It isnt easy as I have to hear what a great time my sister and k are having. They decided to …
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Hugbook
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Cuz I think we all need one.
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Hope all is well with you.
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Hi, Strawberry, Read my Topic in the Cross Addiction Group. Hope it speaks Loud and clear. Hugs, Sheri
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hoping you are feeling well and healthy! much hugs and snugs!
Prayer
Thanks for your words in your journal... they really hit home...much love & hugs
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI will enter more later...basically struggled with depression since I was 11, I am now almost 32.
Treatments
- Effexor Considering
- I went from the highest dose to the lowest. Dont feel much of a difference...except maybe less numb.
- Electroconvulsive therapy Considering
- I dont know. I was so depressed and we were desperate. All I know for sure is that my memory was affected negatively.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Does help when I do it, which is rarely now.
- Paxil Considering
- Dont remember.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Definetly helps. Isnt as easy as it may sound though.
- Prozac Considering
- Dont remember.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Definetly has helped.
- Seroquel Considering
- Dont remember.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- I wouldnt still be here if not for them. I love you all!
- Writing Working / Worked
- Helps as long as it isnt all venting, it needs to be constructive at times as well.
Close Alcoholism
I am an alcholic who has been in AA since the age of 19. I was hoping to find a support group for gambling as I struggle with this one, but I can always use support in general. Its good to be reminded of what life was like when drinking.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- AA Meetings Working / Worked
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- Residential Treatment Center Working / Worked
- Sleep Working / Worked
- Willpower Working / Worked
Open Anxiety
I have very few memories of being worry and anxiety free. It almost feels normal. I hold onto those good memories and hope that more days like that will come along.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- Works yes, focus on the out breath, not the in!
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- Works yes, but I try really hard to limit myself now and allow myself to breathe thru some of the fear.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Yes, it works when I take the time to do it.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- When I allow the positive thoughts to truly sink in, its like instant positive relief.
Open Gambling Addiction & Recovery
I will redo this soon. I have been gambling for...about 8 years. In the last few years, it has been extreme. I went to treatment recently and had one four day relapse. Its been a few weeks but I still dont trust that I wont choose to gamble again.
Treatments
- Distancing Somewhat Helpful
- Lately just will power and prayer.
- Gamblers Anonymous Too Soon to Tell
- I read GA stuff but havent yet actually been to a GA meeting.
