deeds1's Journal

It's weird, I have my good days and my bad days...somedays I want him back so bad, and other's I don't...I'm so confused.  I ask him if he's still with her, and he says yes - so, so much for working things out with me..it's been over 6 months that he's been gone, when I mention lawyer, he says to wait...why??????

I found his "whore" driving by my house last weekend...she has personalized license plates, so it was easy to see, and the thing is...she lives 30 miles away from me..and I live on a private street, so there was no reason for her whatsoever to drive by.  I brought it to his attention and he I guess talked to her, and she denied doing that...so of course, I'm thinking he believes her, because he dropped the subject.  I also talked to him and asked him why were we divorcing, other than the fact that he has a girlfriend and didn't want to give her up...he couldn't give me a reason...so I stated we are divorcing because of sex...she can't offer you anything but that...and he says..no no no..it's more than that...so I told him to give me another reason..i need another reason...and he can't do it...I'm seriously thinking I need to talk to someone before I crack up...