FaithGL's Journal

I'm going to have to come to accept that no matter how hard I try I will never escape this little "crush."

I've liked this girl for six years and we've had a little fling along the way. She was my first kiss. I was horrible to her after the first fling, but she somewhat forgave me. Then a little bird lied to her about me with nasty rumors that I was a cock sucking whorish bitch right when I gave up on gaining her affections a second time. Thus, all hopes for another chance were indefinantly dashed.

We hung out at six flags yesterday. I got to hold her hand... I got to run with her to get our group's bags out of the lockers before they were thrown out.

If I accept these feelings again, though, I'll hurt her again. Either way it's going to eat me up. We might even be rooming together for Otakon.

I'm so glad I have the best boyfriend for me. There's no way I'd break loyalty to him. But I still want to take care of her...

I got to hold her hand =3