Searching4nansw's Journal

Well, I have a wonderful husband and this I know. He's always there for me. He hardly ever complains and I love him to death. We have a great relationship except something that is a major factor is lacking. He's not romantic, and I'm a hopeless romantic. He's a great friend an even better father, and aa awesome provider but what I'm longing for is someone to sweep me off of my feet. We've been together for almost eleven years and I know that he can't have it all but from time to time I get a little vulnerable and start flirting with guys, and girls. I've even slept with three guys in the eleven years that we've been together. I'm not proud of the things that I've done and I know that there is nothing that I can do to change the thing that I've done. I'm posting this journal for help because once again I'm heavily attracted to a co worker and he is attracted to me. There is a potential for disaster here and I know it. I can't stop thinking about this guy. We flirt constantly at work, and even outside of work. We've even hung out a few times outside of work. Nothing has happened outside of an innocent hug but that's not for lack of trying on my part. I know that I have a problem. I just don't know what to do about it. I dont want to hurt anyone and I don't want to ruin a good thing. Please advise.....