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Searching4nansw 
2:55pm, October 11, 2008
Somedays I feel like my old self, and others I wonder whos body I'm trapped in. I'm dealing with issues that I feel no one understands. Sometimes I feel lost. The friends that I used to be so close with yesterday seem like strangers today. Somedays, I feel invinceable, while others I feel defeated before I step out of bed. I can't understand why I feel so different from day to day. I don't know what to make of this new life. I don't know what the people around me think. Just when I thought I had life figured out I've been thrown a curve ball and I can't remember the last time I've felt so unsure, and afraid. They say fear is useful. I still haven't figured out how to use the fear that's brewing inside of me. I guess I will just have to take the good with the bad. I suppose in the long run I'll figure out where I'm going and the confusion, and pain will melt away. That's a day I can't wait for. Until then I'll just grin and bare it.
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I feel the same way,who's body(lupus infested)body am i trapped in? My dear friend, there will come a time, you will be able to just 'grin' and 'bare' it! It will come!Hugs and Prayers,Lisa
lisazz
I def know how you feel...I feel some of these same things daily as well but as I see it...it can always be worse...so until our days come to grin and bare it we have to stick in there and hope that it comes sooner than later...hang in there...
lupie1981