Journal Entry for May 31, 2008
May 31, 2008 9:28am
Hey..... more positive today.... going to america in 48 hrs woo hoo!
Not much else to say..... I am feeling alright.
LadyEllington 
6:15am, April 17, 2009
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About Me
LadyEllington
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About Me
Trying to let go of the past and get on with my life- sick of feeling sorry for myself all the time- its pathetic but very hard to break the habit of a lifetime. I have been going to AA meetings for a couple of months now and reading the literature, i think I am getting the message- I need to find God or get spiritual but I have doubts- I know as soon as I let go of these doubts that everything will be ok, but i have to exhaust every other avenue in a methodical and logical way before I can reach this point. That's just the way i am.
Trying to let go of the past and get on with my life- sick of feeling sorry for myself all the time- its pathetic but very hard to break the habit of a lifetime. I have been going to AA meetings for a couple of months now and reading the literature, i think I am getting the message- I need to find God or get spiritual but I have doubts- I know as soon as I let go of these doubts that everything will be ok, but i have to exhaust every other avenue in a methodical and logical way before I can reach
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Working, sleeping, dancing, cooking, eating, walks on the beach.
Working, sleeping, dancing, cooking, eating, walks on the beach.
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Thanks for replying... did the books help you?
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Holy crap i havent heard from you in ages! I actually thought about how you were the other day, but couldn't remember your profile name. Weird huh?? I'm doing ok... I think... Yeah I am.. a lots changed since we last spoke :P How you doin?? xx
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I miss you so much Ell... hope all is well.
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well when u know where i am if u need someone.even if its just to chat shit to lol xx
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Close Depression
LadyEllington hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Close Alcoholism
Well after my mum died 2 years ago I was "chronically depressed" for 18 months- started drinking away my troubles getting into all kinds of dangerous situations, nearly losing my job and exhausting my friends with constant self pity. Anyways I had tried every anti depression method under the sun but when my doc said to stop drinking i nearly laughed. Long story short- am i an alcoholic?-yes! Been sober for over 6 months now- but i have turned my obsession to food and now suffering an ED.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- I am starting the 12 steps as we speak- reading the big book and such- It has been inspiring and hopefully I can work out a way to get "God" into my life. I have to substitute the words sometimes to make it relevant to my current obsession with food but its all the same. Behaviour is exactly the same. And I don't feel alone or misunderstood as much as i used to.
- AA Meetings Working / Worked
- Sometimes good sometimes really good. At fisrt I thought that as I was new they were secretly gearing the meeting to "speak to me" on some level. How paranoid and egotistical is that? Anyway- they were'nt it was just that I could relate so exactly to the shares that i thought it was a set up.
Open Eating Disorders
Type: Bulimiawell I am an alcoholic who stopped drinking 6 months ago- but since then I have turned my obsession to food and got full blown bulimia now. Its worse than i was with alcohol because of all the deception and the compulsive behaviour. It's becoming apparent that this is going to be harder to give up than drinking.
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