Journal

I left my job last nite,start new job tomorrow.No more working nights or every weekend.YAYYY.It would have been Dad's 66th birthday yesterday as well,so had quite an emotinal weekend but to top it off i went to see a medium this afternoon and Dad came through he said he was ok and that he loved me so much.He felt me kiss him genltly and touch his face as he passed.I'm so excited,i just didn't want the guy to finish.I will definately go again what a wekend.

                   Love you loads Dad.Speak to you soon xxxx

         Two weeks left at my job before i start my new one.I'm excited but there is a part of me that feels there's something missing,so today i've come to the conclusion that it's because i have'nt been able to tell my Dad and i know that he won't be on the phone the minute i walk through the door after my first day.Asking me loads of questions and letting me know how proud he is of me.He knew i'd had enough of my job and wanted to get out but having to go through the interview stage scares me as i do lack confidence,mind you get a bar between me and a customer you would'nt think it.lol

        Anyway i thought by writing this it may help.My new job is a catering assistant at the Hospice that Dad was in.So i think he had a hand in me getting the job anyway!lol The final day i work is Saturday 15th August Dad Birthday.So do you think that he knows anyway?

              Dad missing you sooooooooooo much,love you Sue xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Crumbs i haven't wrote in here for ages.I'm doing ok,I still miss my Dad every day and think of him often.I've applied for a job as a catering assistant at the hospice where Dad passed away.When Dad was in there i spent every day having dinner with him,Even through it is a sad place in one way the team of staff do their best to make it a happy and positive place.I can remember saying to Dad one day i would like to work here,not so much as a carer(don't think i could cope) but in the back ground.So when this job came up i was so excited.The hours are so much better to i get evenings off and weekends.Well i have an interview next Tuesday YAY!!!

          So please Ladies could you keep your fingers crossed for me.I'm sure Dad would be so proud of me,he knows how hard it is for me to move on to something new as i do lack confidence. Thanks Ladies lots of love to you all xxx

   Dad,I know you'll be behind me all the way,i love you soooo much.Miss you Sue xxxxxx