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kjl1951 
1:16pm, September 5, 2009
There is no need to explain what depression is or does to my fellow sufferers, friends & the millions out there who cope on a daily basis. We already know. It is you the family, friends , co-workers & others we deal every day, those who try, can't, won't or are just too confused to understand what depression is. How it spins a web around us. How we turn on the spin of a dime. How without the ability , even with medication, to stop the roller coaster we ride on. The intense pain we feel knowing the mess that is left in our wake. That tearing ripping, agony & searing sorrow we feel as that awful
whirl wind runs through our very souls. That awful surge we need but can't grasp stop our emotional overload. In my own confused, untutored way I will try to help you who deal with us & understand, if only a little.
I.) can you remember a Christmas when the one gift you wanted more then you wanted anything else in your then world?~~~ But it wasn't there? Imagine the utter disappointments day after day with grown up intensity.
2.) losing you first much loved pet? Add the feeling of loss to the pot.
3.) remember the heartache of your first real love, another ingredient to our stew.
4,) the failure we fee at flunking a major important test or the flubbing of a really important job interview. add a heapimg helping of failure
4.) the tearing of your heart at the loss of a dearly held relationship, be it through divorce , death or distance, feel that pain & lost support.
5. ) have you ever known the unreasonable terror when you waken from a horrible dream. you know it is unreasonable but it doesn't stop your heart from racing
There are so much more. It can be like every hurt, sorrow, disappointment, terror anger, loss. grief ,confusion,fear tears, confusion, unfilled need, every insult & every unreasonable thought rolled in a tightly rolled rod which an unseem hand whacks you with most every day To me it is like water boarding with emotions being drowned with your own thoughts.
It is awful , you feel actual pain. You cry then laugh. You feel or at least hope for the future. You want to tackle those asses who say there is no such thing as DEPRESSION, now what is wrong, you were okay a while ago, in my day we our feelings inside or my personal favorite just get over it. I get angry just writing it. Now hear is a test - try sticking a finger in a light socket ,them hit your self with a hammer, do trip light fantastic over a bed of tacks. All the while have your light bulbs flickering on & off with a random pattern. It helps to have stereos blaring, TV's blasting every motion sensor Christmas decoration playing there annoying gibberish. And for the crowning touch let a nursery school play ring a round the rosy in front of you. By the way a car alarm going off helps too.
That just a sample of how one depression sufferers day can be The next day you may feel like you have been buried al. If you are lucky you may sleep. Other days you can't wake up.
If this confused, messed op & incoherent That is what depression does all of this,
that & more
jusr me
whirl wind runs through our very souls. That awful surge we need but can't grasp stop our emotional overload. In my own confused, untutored way I will try to help you who deal with us & understand, if only a little.
I.) can you remember a Christmas when the one gift you wanted more then you wanted anything else in your then world?~~~ But it wasn't there? Imagine the utter disappointments day after day with grown up intensity.
2.) losing you first much loved pet? Add the feeling of loss to the pot.
3.) remember the heartache of your first real love, another ingredient to our stew.
4,) the failure we fee at flunking a major important test or the flubbing of a really important job interview. add a heapimg helping of failure
4.) the tearing of your heart at the loss of a dearly held relationship, be it through divorce , death or distance, feel that pain & lost support.
5. ) have you ever known the unreasonable terror when you waken from a horrible dream. you know it is unreasonable but it doesn't stop your heart from racing
There are so much more. It can be like every hurt, sorrow, disappointment, terror anger, loss. grief ,confusion,fear tears, confusion, unfilled need, every insult & every unreasonable thought rolled in a tightly rolled rod which an unseem hand whacks you with most every day To me it is like water boarding with emotions being drowned with your own thoughts.
It is awful , you feel actual pain. You cry then laugh. You feel or at least hope for the future. You want to tackle those asses who say there is no such thing as DEPRESSION, now what is wrong, you were okay a while ago, in my day we our feelings inside or my personal favorite just get over it. I get angry just writing it. Now hear is a test - try sticking a finger in a light socket ,them hit your self with a hammer, do trip light fantastic over a bed of tacks. All the while have your light bulbs flickering on & off with a random pattern. It helps to have stereos blaring, TV's blasting every motion sensor Christmas decoration playing there annoying gibberish. And for the crowning touch let a nursery school play ring a round the rosy in front of you. By the way a car alarm going off helps too.
That just a sample of how one depression sufferers day can be The next day you may feel like you have been buried al. If you are lucky you may sleep. Other days you can't wake up.
If this confused, messed op & incoherent That is what depression does all of this,
that & more
jusr me
Comments
Depression sucks.......all the life out, all the joy out, all the motivation out. How do we rise above it? Hang in there xo
Snuffles
You want to tackle those asses who say there is no such thing as DEPRESSION.....yes I do agree with what you have written...heard You were not doing so good...hugz @ ya there gal....
doghunter59
Just Get Over it, Kathy ... OK I'm waiting...
hmmmm you must have missed me. Try again, c'mon you can do it. I ain't been taclked by a beautiful Angel in weeks. come on... what's keeping you, it'll be fun. OK, I give up. Now I'm so depressed. I thought you hit me like a linebacker, we'd fall, you'd wrestle me to the floor, & then I'd just hug you & kiss you all over your pretty face. Boy, I hope THAT doesn't give you nightmares HA!HA!
Here's enough hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs to ward off the depression & keep you happy.
Thanks for the journal Kathy, it really does explain it to someone like me who can't imagine what its like. My humor is all I have to offer you. And sometimes I think maybe it WHY I'm not suffering too.
Shoot, maybe I really AM and just to crazy to KNOW IT! Wouldn't THAT be the heigth of irony. mmmwah!
Hang in there sweetie, better times are a comin'.
theGuardian
Your graphic description is about the most accurate I've ever read. I've felt exactly like that. And when I'm in that rotten mood, I get really ANGRY with anyone that even hints that it "can't be that bad." IT IS BAD!! But hang in there. It's all you can do. Talk to your friends here on DS. We will do our best to understand...and hope that in some way that helps you.
ChuckDG
Yo kid?? what chuck said + rember DS =Daily Support
God Bless
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