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Meekacat 
7:52pm, November 8, 2009
It's pretty much winter here already. High today is 38F. I've been in a horrible Lupus Flare since Saturday and I'm just feeling better today. SSDI check is here...time to pay my half of rent and utilities and off to the drug store to spend the rest. I've got to get meds to tame ths horrible Rhuemetory Arthritis. I can't even pick anything from the floor, it's so bad. No position is comfortable for more than 15 minutes. Needless to say...NOT SLEEPING WELL! I'm exhausted, depressed and cranky. Winter is so darn early here. We've had days that it has snowed, although it is all gone now. How will I get to spring??????? I promise to journal on a day I'm feeling better, next time!
I HOPE YOU ARE ALL WELL!
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Loose 35 pounds! UGH!!!
Progress 90%
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I am soooo angry! I made a decision that I thought would cost me $35 but ended up costing me $315!!!!
Last Friday, I had $5 in my account. I would not have more $ until yesterday, my SSDI check should have arrived (still isn't here today~great!) ANYWAY, I was in so much pain from driving Stacia 140 miles round trip to the Dr. that I went to the pharmacy and filled a $40 perscription, knowing I would be charged $35 for the overdraft. HERE WE GO....
On Tues, Wed and Thurs I had made 8 purchases on my debit card (each of which was less than $5), OMG, these purchases did not process until AFTER the overdraft. With the bank charge of $35, the funds for these purchases were gone...NOW THE BANK CHARGES ME $35 for each of the 8 purchases!!!!!!
OK, I call the branch manager only to be told they have no authority to reverse these fees. I had to call an (800) and tell my sob story ONLY to be told that the MOST they will reverse is $100 one time only and they will note my account and will not do it again. I WAS SOOO MAD...I TOLD THEM TO TAKE THEIR "F"ING $100 AND SHOVE IT and hung up the phone!
I honestly feel as though our country and our society has evolved to those that have the $$$ and those that don't. It's so frustrating. FURTHER, how do sick people take care of themselves? Most days I barely have the physical capability of getting a shower and dressed...I'm physically as well as mentally exhausted. I truly don't have the energy to deal with the "system". I think that death becomes a welcome event...to escape all of this bull crap.
I KNOW I have so much to be thankful for...and I am. However, why does life have to be so dog gone hard? It robs us of the daily joys.
Obviously time for me to spend some time in prayer and quit licking my wounds.
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I'm so sorry you have this added burden today. Breathe....
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Oh man. I so hear you! It's like the "system" is. There just to make our lives hard, and people are no longer human to human interaction, cuz that would be "personal". And we all know that somehow has become a dirty word. God forbid we get personal and empethetic to one another.
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Holy smokes, Sandra! Yes, the banks keep sockin' it to us while they're getting rich off it. Hard to believe a consciousness that allows personal and public strain, desperation and grief.
I know you are strong and that you can make it. You know that life is worth living. Yes, give yourself time to lick those wounds and keep yelling for a while. We're not all Christs or Buddhas.
I know that you will get back on your feet. That you will gain comfort and knowledge through your faith. Have patience my friend.
With much love and understanding,
Sally
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Will pray that the Lord Jesus Christ will strengthen you. By His stripes we are healed. Banks are Satan personified;)
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sweetie, boy have I had the same problem before with the bank. They are very good at arranging your debits and screwing you out of your hard earned money.
Hang in there and stay strong. Take your money out of the bank if you can and just bury it in the back yard! lol,
Love and hugs,
Rosey
UPDATED GOALS
Loose 35 pounds! UGH!!!
Progress 80%
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Get a nice home for us!
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We finally have our home AND I'm taking some of this weight off. YEA!!!!!!!
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Congratulations on both counts! :) Cheryl
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Congrats!!! 35 pounds...wow!! good job
Love Deb
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Sandra, I sure hope you are feeling better!! It sucks when your whole check goes to bills and meds!! Don't feel bad....i am cranky too!! I finish up in the hospital today and get my port out....i am just so sick and tired of being sick and in pain!!
I Love You Sweetie.....Deb
heick
Hope you are feeling better. I miss talking to you. We are all doing good. Love & Hugs
jinkx50
Hope you feel better soon and wish we could switch weather conditions.
JavaFirst
I know exactly what you are saying. As soon as the weather changed here (NY), I started hurting. And I cannot sleep with the pain keeping me awake. Most nights I have to sleep sitting up. I am hoping once the temps level out I'll be better. I hope you will too. Hang in there! Spring does come eventually! :) Cheryl
BeautifulDreamer
I have the dreaded Rheum.Arthritis, & it's been giving me hell for 3 days (thundering weather) - but is suddenly OK today (so I'm typing like mad!. So sorry to hear that you have the awful Lupis - that's one mean disease. I've already apologized for talking about the weather alkl the time (checking my Jl. entries - it's really embarrassing, but it dominates my life - I must get busy on making the move north. Do hope you get some relief from the dreaded stiffness. Fond regards JaneD.
JaneD