ajv357's Journal

So, today was a huge relief from the long-standing "rut' I've been in. But to call it a "rut" would be a GROSS understatement, but I don't feel like whining right now. Anyway, I actually feel some motivation today and it started with last night. I said to myself: tomorrow you will actively think about recovery and start the day with something positive. And I did it.

This morning, I hd an apple, 2 slices of bread, and a whole little plastic carton of cherry tomatoes. But, the bread freaked me out sice I havebeen severely binging lately so I purged some of that up. Then I took my vitamins. BUT, I immediately got on the computer and watched a youtube pro-recovery vid for eds and it was wonderful, just what I needed.

Then, I went to go see Adam (he's taking classes here now so we don't have to do the whole long distance thing) and we took a nap. I slept for 3 HOURS!! God, I have needed that so badly b/c I've been staying up really late b/ping everyday ever since I got back here (school for summer classes), but I am STILL tired. It was really nice to see him b/c I've been going to class then work and haven't been able to go over to his place, partly b/c I've been too tired though. Well, we made brownie, and they we fantastic! I really do love his desserts. He is really paarticular about them and he makes them as fat-free as possible. We usually end up polishing up the desserts we make that day lol, but the funny thing is that I feel safe to do that if I'm with him and he makes the dessert.

Now that I'm back at my apt, I've been snacking on veggies and I feel healthy, which I havent felt for a while.

Anyways, just felt like updating happy. Now I have to study; I have a test in geography tomorrow!