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well here I sit in the pain and agony we all experience evry month.However not even the super strong pain killers are doing much good so I say bring on the operation.It is only in a few days and I am scared but it has to be better than this.
Still upset about hubby's sister calling me a thief.And for the inlaws also believing it,I am concerned as I don't know how his youngest sister will re-act as she has been away.She may not believe me either and that woud be sad.I don't now whether to ring her or not.The only good part is at least I can say 2009 is free from crap as she rang an told me I had stolen the figurine on 31st Dec.
I want 2009 to be a better year.My nerves are starting to get the better of me again as all this crap happens.Have been up since 5.00am in the worst pain.It has been a while and tablets haven't done much yet.
Lots of mixed emotions re family too.Still massively confused about being adopted.
Sad that BM's message on phone was probably just a mistake as she sent it to many.
Hard to have talked to Oma and then told that it was all too much for her by Aunty.She sounded fine to me.Not one hint that it was dificult talking to me.
Uncle(BU) sent me an xmas message on phone just when I thought he must have been out of the picture too.It is all soooooo confusing.
Would like my A brother to meet my B sister but I don't think he is ready for that yet,How can I invite them both to my hubby's birthday when other people know who she is and something might slip.Also we do look a bit alike and he is clever enough to spot that.Another dilhema.
My son's old friends are leaving him out and i don't see why they would.Will have to encourage him to seek other friends which he has done to some extent and form new friendships.Can't but help to feel sad for him though.
Daughter is back from interstate and I am so relieved.She bought me a beautiful bracelet for xmas.
that'll do
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I'm sorry to read that your 2008 is off to such a disturbing start. I can understand how it can be incredibly difficult for you.
I do believe that times like these go in cycles and I do that this too shall pass and things will turn around in time.
Please do what you need to keep your wits in tact. Always take the high road , because all of this is a test of your character and others will see that you have weathered these storms with class and dignity.
You will be the better person for it all when the skies clear.
I send you my prayers for endurance.
SueHope
I agree with Sue, we have to take control of our own lives, even when we're kicked in the gut it's our choice to stay down or find the way up and from my perspective, why worry about your brother 'being ready or not' it's not like your pushing somethign on him, it's your b-day do as you chose. Your a wonderful person and I know what it feels like to want to make those around me comfortable and happy but I can tell you in the end whenever I play that role it ends up being me who's unhappy and fretting while those I put myself out there for never see it so not even a thank you for giveing them consideration. Thier lives go on as normal whiel I have to wrestle with the pit in my stomach.
Chris333