Journal Entry for April 22, 2008
April 22, 2008 4:51pm
I have two cats and a dog... The dog was my Mom's and my pride and joy. We love(d) the cats, but they are old, and not big on …
Kimberley49
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Kimberley49
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About Me
I never "flew the coop". I think a part of me always knew my mother would need me around. I became her caregiver, though only for a few weeks. She worked full time until a month before she passed. I have been struggling with who I am and who I want to be and how I want to live my life, and now my Mom is gone. I feel very much as though I am building my life from ground zero.
I never "flew the coop". I think a part of me always knew my mother would need me around. I became her caregiver, though only for a few weeks. She worked full time until a month before she passed. I have been struggling with who I am and who I want to be and how I want to live my life, and now my Mom is gone. I feel very much as though I am building my life from ground zero.
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Interests
Not much lately. Before hospice and death I enjoyed friends, bars, golf, concerts, sporting events, sunshine, laughter, and fun. Now I make myself go out and try to live as I once did, but much prefer solitude, internet, tv and books.
Not much lately. Before hospice and death I enjoyed friends, bars, golf, concerts, sporting events, sunshine,
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Journal Entry for April 19, 2008
April 19, 2008 4:50pm
Soooooo... today is Mom's birthday. She would have been sixty-two. Today more than ever I realize that she was entirely too …
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Journal Entry for April 17, 2008
April 17, 2008 6:02pm
Grief... in my experiences thus far, the most devastating of human emotions. It's a deep longing for someone with the knowledge that the …
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Journal Entry for April 15, 2008
April 15, 2008 6:28pm
I hit a bit of a rock bottom a week and a half ago. I was aware that I was officially depressed, spent the majority of my time on the couch, …
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Journal Entry for April 2, 2008
April 2, 2008 4:23am
It's one am and I took a break from "Motherless Daughters" the book for "Motherless Daughters" the web site. I am …
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I know how you feel, wanting to enjoy and have fun and not feeling quite comfortable actually doing it. It will just happen, slowly, you will laugh and feel good about it. and yes, there are those that ask but don't really want to konow, and honestly I just say, "don't ask you don't really want to know, I am a mess, but I get thru each day" so feel your feelings for as long as you have them, cry if you have to cry and know that you can come here at DS and get the support from those that understand and feel your pain with you! I wish you a wonderful day today. big hugs!
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thank you for your words. it means a lot knowing im not the only one take care big hugs amanda
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Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentMy Mom died of Leiomyosarcoma (ie: rare Cancer) on March 8th, 2008.
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- Am finding that a good cry session is cathartic. I let myself feel when I need to, and feel better afterwards. Littles bits at a time.
- Getting Angry Not Working
- I just feel guilty when I give in to my anger.
- Grief Counseling Working / Worked
- I had my first session today. This woman is wonderful and I like her and I trust her, and it felt good to have someone to talk to where I didn't feel like I had to say all the right things. I'm seeing her again next week.
- Helping Others Considering
- Sometimes wonder if I have a future with hospice/bereavement
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- The last week has been the best I've felt in a long time. This is not to say that all is well, but I've allowed myself to go out, have some fun, and make some plans for the future. Slowly letting myself get back to "life".
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- My dog is my companion. My baby. My best friend. He was also my Mom's dog. We shared indescribeable love for him.
- Reading Working / Worked
- Started Motherless Daughters today. Over 100 pages in already. Very comforting.
- Remembering Working / Worked
- Hanging on to memories helps me feel that she is always with me.
- Support from Friends & Family Too Soon to Tell
- I have so many wonderful people in my life who care for me and are doing all they can for me. In some ways I need what they are doing, and in other ways, though I appreciate the "help", no one can really "help".
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- The judgemental and cynical side of me is embarrassed to admit that I'm a part of an "online support group". The truth is I have already found immeasurable comfort in this site.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- She has been my entire life, especially the last couple of months. Sometimes I feel like she is all I have to talk about.
Close Sexual Abuse
I was Seventeen. I almost never talk about it, and keep it locked away in the back of my mind. Yet something is telling me to add this to my support while grieving for my Mother.
Treatments
- Talking Not Working
- I do not like talking about it. Why am I here?
- \"The Courage To Heal\" Considering
- Do I leave it tucked away, or do I bring it back and try to heal as a grown woman?
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