Journal Entry for June 27, 2008
June 27, 2008 6:20pm
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Goal End Date is Aug 11, 08 151 days ago.
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PinkFlower9804
is feeling Horrible
I'm so sorry to all my friends, I'm just in a horrible place right now..I dont know when I'll be back on.
About Me
I was molested around the age of 11 by my Aunt's Ex-Husband. I have been living with Depression and Anxiety since at least the age of 12, maybe younger. I hid it from everyone, even my Parents. Many times I wanted to kill myself, but there was never enough pills around. I continued to hide my depression and anxiety through the years..along with the sexual abuse (my silence cost someone else their innocence) Eventually, I married and was lucky enough to have two beautiful children. Through the last 10+ years I have had marital problems, money problems and issues with my husbands side of the family. In 2005 I was (I now know) misdiagnosed with Fibromyalgia and Rheumatoid Arthritis. We moved to FL. in Aug. of 2006 and since then I have been through 2 Rheumatolagists, and I am on my third. I have finally found someone who is determined to find out what is really wrong with me. After checking myself into the hospital voluntarily, I recently spent 9 days in the Psyciatric Ward of the hospital. I am doing better now than I was but still have a long way to go. I just found out that I have severe Osteo-Arthritis in my back & hips, along with Herniated Discs. They also used the term 'Defused Degenerate Osteo Arthritis'.
Interests
Listening to the sound of my childrens laughter, Hockey, Losing myself in a book, love to Dance, Listening to Music, Going to the Beach, Watching Movies (at home & at the theater. I love to laugh...
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Journal Entry for June 17, 2008
June 17, 2008 12:32pm
I don't know why I even come on here sometimes...I dont interact with people or friends. I'm trying but its just getter harder and harder …
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I'm so sick of living like this
June 11, 2008 5:00pm
I'm so sick of living like this I wish I could just go to sleep and never wake up...
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Don't Know..
June 10, 2008 8:55pm
I have been putting off writing for a while now. Lets see...I had my MRI's done last Thursday, the Dr's office called me the next day to tell …
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Merry Christmas to you and the kids, stay blessed. Rever
Get Well Soon!
thinking of you,hugs
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Moment of Peace
I pray you are doing well. blessing
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Prayer
Hope you are doing ok.I do understand how you are feeling cause I am in that place myself right now too.I am fighting it everyday though. I have been noticing that I have been distancing myself from alot of people in my life right now and the things I used to like to do.I know it is hard but we have to be strong. Hope to hear from you soon . Take care and LOTSA HUGS!!!!!
Prayer
I think of you often..hope you are ok...love Dee
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Support Groups
Close Arthritis
I have severe Osteo arthritis in my lower back, both hips and a herniated disc.
Treatments
- Pain Management Clinic Too Soon to Tell
- I had my first Epidural Steroid today 6/27/08 Here's hoping it works!
Close Sexual Abuse
PinkFlower9804 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have been living with Depression since about the age of 12
Treatments
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Writing Too Soon to Tell
- I started journaling while in the hospital, but haven't really done it since coming home.
- Zoloft Somewhat Helpful
- Now on 150mg. I think this is starting to help
Open Self-Injury
I ahve thought about cutting, but have managed to keep from doing this. I do bite, punch, poke myslef with tacks and pull my hair. I pick at my head till it bleeds, then when it starts to heal, I pick again until bleeding.
Open Anxiety Disorders in Children
My 9yr. old daughter has been diagnosed with a Huge Anxiety Disorder & Selective Mutism.
Open Parenting 'Tweens (9-12)
PinkFlower9804 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Short Stature
My 4yr old son has been diagnosed with a pituitary gland problem where his does not produce enough HGH. Right now, he is the size of about a 2yr. old
Treatments
- Growth Hormone Considering
- We are heading to his specialist on May 1st. to find out if he will be going on HGH.
Open ADHD / ADD
My 9yr. old daughter is being tested for ADD through her school and also a psychologist.
Treatments
- Patience Somewhat Helpful
Open Degenerative Disc Disease
I just got my MRI results and found out that I have severe Osteo Arthritis with dehydraton of the spinal fluid in multiple spots in my back and neck.
Open Degenerative Joint Disease
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