Journal Entry for April 23, 2008
April 23, 2008 1:55am
Ugh.
Sorry I've been lacking in the update department, folks.
My computer is so full of shit that it won't let me even clear the disk space it …
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About Me
Oh, the ever-popular 'about me' section. Let's see. I'm Molly. I'm an animal activist/writer/piercer/model. And I have about every mental ailment you can imagine. If that doesn't tell you enough about me, make the effort to figure things out for yourself. =]
Oh, the ever-popular 'about me' section. Let's see. I'm Molly. I'm an animal activist/writer/piercer/model. And I have about every mental ailment you can imagine. If that doesn't tell you enough about me, make the effort to figure things out for yourself. =]
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An amazing day indeed.
April 1, 2008 2:42am
Today was a really, really good day.
I saw that with passion behind my words because I never get really, really good days anymore.
I ended up …
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Ugh, first entries are always lame.
March 30, 2008 12:02am
I'm not a fan of the first entry on these sort of things.
But without them, I suppose none of you will know what's wrong with me.
I …
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Hi. I live in Fargo, too. I hope everything is going well for you. :)
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I FEEL YOUR PAIN REGARDING MIGRAINES. I HAVE HADE DAILY HEAD PAIN FOR OVER 2 YEARS NOW. SOME DO GET TO MIGRAINES. I HAVE BEEN HAVING DILAUDID AS A PAIN MED FOR THEM SINCE OCTOBER AND HAVEN'T BEEN TO THE ER SINCE FOR MIGRAINES.
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whould you like to be friends?
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haha aww :) that def made me happy. thank you very much!
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Haha, aw well darn. You got me all excited. Well, its good to know theres someone out there who looks just like me :)
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Close Anxiety
I have a general fear of obligations. This causes the typical heart racing, shaking, and rapid spiral into a panic attack. We haven't yet been able to figure out why I'm afraid of this or why this causes my anxiety, but it's definitely a crippling ailment.
Treatments
- Klonopin Somewhat Helpful
- This doesn't lessen my anxiety, it only blurs my vision and makes me too tired to have the energy to go into a panic attack.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Another thing that has its moments, but isn't a significant source of help.
Close Panic Attacks
My biggest source of panic comes from my irrational fear of people coming to kill me at night. The other significant trigger is working, because my health problems make it difficult for me to participate in obligational activities, and I view work as such. I basically quit everything I start.
Treatments
- Klonopin Somewhat Helpful
- This doesn't really help my panic, either. It only makes me too tired to have full panic attacks.
- Patience Not Working
- Patience is getting me nowhere as of now.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Positive thinking doesn't take away the people that are going to do these things to me. I.E., the killers that don't really exist, but it makes no difference because my mind doesn't realize that.
- Seroquel Not Working
- I almost died from this. Worst thing I've ever taken.
Open Phobia
Type: HypochondriaI have a fear of people coming and killing me at night. The only time I can sleep through the night on my own without the help of medications is when there is a male in my house, i.e., my dad or my boyfriend. I'm also afraid of the dark because of this. And I have a severe case of hypochondria when it comes to fatal illnesses.
Open Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
The doctors can't pinpoint this as an issue of mine, but my mom had it for a long time, and it was a huge struggle for her. She sees the symptoms I have and we have enough evidence to believe that even though the doctors say they can't prove it, I do have CFS. It's a painful, stressful, crippling part of my life.
Treatments
- Pain Management Clinic Considering
- I've heard good things about these and we're considering taking me to one as soon as my doctor refers me.
Open Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)
I've had this for the past six years or so. The doctors say that it's basically just an uncomfortable problem I'll have for the rest of my life, but I refuse to accept that as an answer. I can't retain food, thus causing my appearance to be mistaken for anorexia quite often. Also, if I know that I'll be anywhere but at home, I reufse to eat. This causes me to go long periods of time without food, sometimes binging when I return home, or causing me to feel ill from short-term malnutrition.
Treatments
- High Fiber Diet Not Working
- Made me worse.
- Imodium Somewhat Helpful
- Sometimes this helps for short periods of time.
Open Migraine Headaches
The first time I ever had a migraine, I couldn't believe the pain I was in. I stayed in bed for an entire day and hoped it would never happen again. Unfortunately, I have had headaches every single day since, and this was three years ago. I've had to go to the emergency room because I thought I was having an aneurism and lost all control of my motor skills. I've had cat scans, MRIs, and many other tests done that reveal nothing. I do feel that there is something to find.
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Not Working
- I've tried to avoid meat, caffeine, and other various ingredients to things. Nothing has made a difference one way or another.
- Excedrin Not Working
- Excedrin only made me feel medicated and nauseous.
- Imitrex Not Working
- Did nothing. Made me tired and ill-feeling.
- Midrin Working / Worked
- Midrin is the only thing that has ever worked for me. I suggest using this to everyone.
- Relpax Not Working
- Didn't work and made me drowsy for an entire day, with a hangover the following day.
- Tylenol Not Working
- Tylenol doesn't do much, other than make me feel strange and medicated.
Open Insomnia
Like most other members of this group, I never sleep unless heavily medicated. It takes much stronger dose than it does for most people I know, which is odd, considering I'm very medication-sensitive.
Treatments
- Ambien Working / Worked
- Yes, sometimes it works, when I'm already very tired. Otherwise, it just helps me to stay asleep a little better.
- Lavender Not Working
- Gives me a headache.
- Music Not Working
- I just sing along, and then my mind continues to work and can't shut down.
- Reading Working / Worked
- If I read for a long time, I find myself yawning, and can at least turn the lights off to rest, but it doesn't help me sleep.
