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cj, i still find it amazing that you can write "345 days smoke free" after everything you go through on a daily basis! YOU ROCK! as for little gay sister, i have no words.....LOL :)

There is no place to pick up where you left off if there is nothing in the first place. She's like a chameleon, always changing her colors for her environment. Undependable, unreliable (except you can rely on the fact she'll stab you in the back). Good thing you see her clearly for what she is and keep on telling her to stay out of your life. As adults we get to pick our friends and then they can become our new family. Lots of love and we understand you have LOTS going on ... come on ds any time to vent if it helps :) XXOO LOVE YOU!!!

Miss you too!!

Miss you

I was talking the other day about how you are one of the most important people I have met on DS. I think of you often-hope you are healthy my friend.

Darling, you just do what you need to do... The only reason I'm here so much is I would be dead from over-working my poor weary MS bones otherwize... (Today is a perfect example of doing too much--I am wiped out and it's not even 4 p.m....)

Take care of yourself, and congrats on telling the Lil Sis to get lost!!! xoxoxo Cj

Oh, yeah... the was The Other Cj... (((HUGS)))

Love to you... and FUCK OFF to him and her..... hop we will see you around soon.

Hey Girl, with you all the way. stay strong. As for those two. Forget it
A wolf will lose his fur before he loses his habit. So those two are nothing but an annoyance and good going with the goal of not smoking luv you too, miss ya

Good golly Miss Molly......

Cheryl it sounds to me like you have one helluva good head on your shoulders and there just can't be all that much to figure out. You have been wronged...betrayed by those you considered family and loved ones. They are the demons you now need to come to terms with. Distance comes to mind but I do believe that eventually you will forgive them, however you will NEVER EVER trust them again nor will you ever let them into your life. You are a very good, very decent very caring woman who has been wronged in some of the worst ways possible. So be it Cheryl....they have taught you everything you never want in a relationship. You have 3 wonderful kids. Some have more needs than others but you love them all. Time for stbx to pay up, little sister to get lost in her "new found rebirth" and for you to find a piece of joy to call your own. I wish for you the Serenity Prayer. Most folks associate this prayer with addicts but listen to the words, we all could use a dose of this:
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the differnce

My heart and prayers go out to you my friend. Try to get unglued from those who would continue to use you for their own purposes, try to heal your body (i.e. foot!) and your mind...your heart will follow.

Smoke free! YEAH!!!!! Great job!

My sis is the same, one minute loves me to death the next would kill me for a buck and a half.

But you must stay strong, even when you feel the weakest - look into yourself to pull yourself up from the mire that is created when the two whore-hounds get together and try to blame you for their crap.

You're are better than them and deserve so much joy and love in your life. Miss you around here too but I know what you mean about having so much going on. I'll keep you in my thoughts and send you big hugs and moments of serenity via the wind.

~Sandra

((((CJ)))) miss you!

oh CJ.....

really, there ought to be a bounty on certain people.

OMG get some rest!

CJ you are so nice to be helpful....may you be blest for helping out...now get some rest and hope to see you on more...you are getting close to a year without smoking...good job sweetie..with all the stuff you have dealt with and not pick up...good girl...hugs to you...

Darling CJ, I just simply LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU UP AND DOWN!!! All that stress and no smoking??? I AM SO PROUD OF YOU (as I hope you are of yourself as well...

Man, you cook alot of grub!! I almost never have visitors here particular ones for whom I need to cook... Good thing as my legz would just give out on me along with my budget... LOL

Hope you have a great week of REST!!! xoxoxo The Other Cj

I agree with your friend, if you cook it - they will come. Kinda like locusts.

So glad you were able to throw such a wonderful party! I'm sure your Maw-Maw and Paw-Paw appreciated it.

And sweetie - come out to LA and I'll teach you how to dance. I can't sing either (my kids can, take after my side of the family - only thing stbx's can do is dumpster dive) but after a few well placed beverages and we'll be singing up a storm! I'll even teach you something in Spanish, a - Kiss My Ass - song.

Take care of the foot, no kicking stupid cousins away from the meat. You might miss and hit the fridge!!

~Sandra

Hey CJ so good to read that you are smiling. Boy I just wonder if your relatives and mine are related. My mother used to do all the cooking and when it came to cleaning, they disappeared like the morning mist. I agree with that person. Just stop feeding them so much and they will disappear. Keep smiling my friend and keep off that stupid foot. Why do you not sell it and buy another one if it will not smarten up.

I am so glad you are back. I missed you. Wow you have been running crazy these past weeks. I hope you get to rest some. Damn woman you were doing all of this with a broken foot. Hell you deserve some type of award. It is wonderful that you did all this for your grandma. You get it, you really do, this is what so much of life is about, making someone else you love happy. I adore you and I am glad all is well, well as well as life is for you...Big hugs

You are one heck of a giving woman CJ...and what a huge family you have... I am glad you are there for your grandparents....that is what you do! They must love you so much.. yes you had better watch that foot...take it easy some days ya know. Hugs Kate

CJ, while it's wonderful to know that you are so giving of your time, effort and love, when it comes to "over doing" -- remember: People will only take advantage of you IF you let them!
Next time the obnoxious relatives come for a free meal, assign tasks to them and let it be known that "You no help -- You no eat!"

Have missed you soooo much, but you've been so busy. How the hell did you afford all that meat? I haven't had meat in months.

Hmmmmm, you can pick your friends, you can pick your nose but you can't pick your friend's nose or your family...but you CAN pick ON them! LMAO Seriously, tell your lazy ass relatives to get up off their lard butts and pitch in! Did it ever occur to them to bring along a dish of some sort? Or are they just freeloaders? Now as for stbx...give him a bottle of Woolite to swig and cut him loose in a sheep pen! LOL Oh! Love the saying on your T-shirt, can you get that printed on a hat? Take care of that foot! Ummmm that means you may just have to stay OFF of it ya know!

You got one thing WRONG in this journal... YOU CAN DANCE! I've seen that with my very own eyes! *GRIN*

unbelieveable!

Aww Cj... that's terrible... if they have kids ya think they might be born with 5 heads?! Can I come and point and giggle at them?

Hugs girl... you're amazing to put up with all this and still smile (some days)
Love ya!
T

Perhaps bringing chastity belts back into fashion is not such a bad idea? Honestly CJ your stbx's family (and yes your slutty sister) give credibility to our perceived notion of what a hillbilly is and that's just not a fair assumption for a woman like you who works so hard to maintain a solid life and lifestyle for herself and for her kids. Their older relatives are teaching them all the wrong things by setting their disgusting examples of what they deem to be socially acceptable. Keep moving forward, keep doing best to keep your kids out of harm's way and evidently this includes their extended family. You have a social conscience and a whole lot of class and that's exactly the sort of lessons your kids need to be learning!

wow that is just sad! Well doesn't sound like she can handle motherhood, poor kids. Sounds like you need a vacation :)

Darling, have these people never heard of a vibrator?? or Rose Palm and her 5 sisters??? I mean, come on... Mr. Hitachi gets my vote every time (plug in vibrator that my lesbian friends hooked me up with long long ago...)--I just don't get it... Do they have stock in condoms??? If not, they should... xoxoxo The Other Cj

I am about ready to spay and neuter these family members for you. Have paring knife and melon baller. Are you sure these are actually YOUR relatives? Possible switch at the hospital and they sent you home with the wrong people?

What the hell? Does no one live near you? Can they not drive somewhere to meet someone else? Oh man. They are definitely a soap opera. On Lifetime.

BLECCH! That is absolutely DISGUSTING! Boyd52, you have me rolling on the floor, but I'm not sure a melon baller would do the job on this idiot -- He's got absolutely BRASS BALLS! Perhaps you should get out the acetelyne torch for the job!
CJnLA, I honestly believe that in a case like this, HOMICIDE would be unquestionably JUSTIFIABLE!

That is just crazy... I will come and help Boyd...we need a project...LOL You need a wall chart to keep everyone straight...Big hugs dear...

*getting my torches ready* LET'S GO GET 'EM....

I think Boyd's got a point: I vote for the "switched at birth" explanation. After all, it works in the soap operas and that's definitely what you're living. Sheesh, even my Scottish terrier had more discriminating tastes when it came to mating!

Are you on a deserted island or is this just a reality show gone bad....real bad?

*shudders*

They sound like road kill - let's get out the eatin' utencils!!

.....I just shake my head.....holy moly!

Wow, they should make a reality show with them being the main character.
As the stomach turns would be an appropriate title. Oh brother. Unable to find words to describe them. Anyway CJ. you are just awesome. Keep smiling and just sit back and watch the train wreck that will follow, save some pop corn and soda for me (make that a double brandy and I do not drink)

OMG!
Okay... you have to watch this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWE...