lovinsah's Journal

So I am just okay right now. We are having tight money problems. Nothing new I guess. Extra money had to come out this time so we are soo tight. We are going to a thing on saturday that we don't really like but its FREE BBQ! Yum Yum! Its only 5 minutes away so why not right?? Riley is so excited about it.

Riley is doing soo well in school. I can't believe HOW well. Scary. I actually miss her during the day. I didn't think I would miss her and Glad that she was gone, but I am not. I actually MISS her quite a bit. I love seeing her smile off the school bus and then talk a mile a minute away for 1/2 hour!!! She tells me what station she visited and shows me any papers she gets.

It is hard to wake up at 7am during the week. She even says she isn't getting enough sleep. Last night she stayed up a little later so that is why. Tomorrow she doesn't have school so I am happy about it!! We get to sleep in. when she is 9 I don't have to take her to the bus stop. She is even asking now if I don't have to take her. Wow, she is growing up so much now.I don't have much more time with her. I mean I do, but its going so fast. Shsss.... 

My husband and I aren't doing so hot. I asked him if he knew about my illiness and what we have and are going through he would married me still. He said no. It hurts to think about that answer. Why did he say no?? I thought he loved me so much. Blah. I should of never asked him. 

We just need a vacation. We are taking one in march with the money we are getting from the vacation. I hope so. Well I am going now. Oh yeah - I have cold sores IN MY MOUTH. and plus little bumps on my tongue on the same side. I can't even eat hardly with that and my TMJ. salt and water don't help. I wanna give it out before saturday - any suggestions??