tbeattie81's Journal

Hello everyone! The baby blanket is coming along pretty good & I think I will be done soon.  I thought that by the time I finished I would be pregnant & be able to start my own baby blanket.    But hubby has agreed to start doing it every other day; he said that if we do it before he goes to work like in the morning its better for him.  Which of course is great but mornings isn't natural or easy for me so that's an adjustment but one I'm ready to make!  

So some things are going on in my world that suck!  My little sister who's "crazy" to put it mildly keep calling me if she can't reach me she just calls through out the day until I answer & she's been calling every weekend!  It's frustrating & weird because we don't have much in common!  And she calls like that randomly for a few months & then like a year will go bye without hearing anything!  And it kind of upsets the balance of my days.  

And then I've been going through this bullshit with DVR & Voc Rehab.  It took a week for my counselor to even get back to me!  And I've been doing all the research into schools for Medical Transcription financial aid etc.Some of the school people I talked to weren't sure about it being a good job fit for me since I kinda need to work from home or make my own schedule. So then I finally get an email from her (DVR Counselor Kay)today & says that she found out from other sources that this job is not in demand because there are too many people trained in this field! So that's out!  I've always been sending her messages all week with information & questions about becoming a Lactation Consultant since I can't become a nurse or anything right now I thought that would be a good fit!  And in today's email she just said that I need to talk to someone at WIA through Work Source to discuss what careers are in demand & that I can do from home.  That once I've come to a close decision on a vocational goal I have to get 3 informational interviews from those goals to see if this is a possible job and would the employer consider me working from home!?!!  So basically I feel as if the days weeks & months really of research on Medical Transcription & taking the stupid class! was just a big waste of time & now I just don't know what I'm going to do with myself plus my husband still hasn't found any job leads! I thought once I got my meeting with her I would be able to start a job or at least the schooling relatively soon!  Guess again!!! I feel so frustrated & discouraged because our situation is definitely not getting better.  I applied for a "sidcount" on our property taxes because of my disability & we were actually DENIED because we made a little over $200 over the minimum amount!  First of all they took our statements from the last year when I HAD A JOB!!!!  But they don't care that I don't have that job anymore & that we have to EMPTY the savings we just made to pay the damn bill!  Anyway, that's how my life is these days....

I hope that you're all doing well & I will take the time right now to read your journals etc. I know I haven't been a very good friend these days; but you guys have always been there for me! Which means so much to me...you're there even when I just want to isolate myself & be left alone I don't hear from my "other" friends; but I always get words of encourangement & kindness from you guys so thanks for that.

Wishing you painfree days or even moments for some of us that's enough!

Take Care 

XOXO

T