tbeattie81's Journal

So I've been diagnosed by my Dr. with Bipolar & I'm doing ok....at least trying really hard to be anyway. I've been kinda going to the Adapt program (out patient hospital for psychiatric treatment)  They gave me more "poison" to take:Depakote & my baby dr said no baby while on it!   So I'm getting off of it but they raised the Seroquel to 400mg at bed time & I HATE It just knocks me out COLD....

Had ultrasound today, probably just ANOTHER cyst!  Have to wait 2 days for results in the meantime haven't had sex in over a month because of everything and still can't until know why it hurts so much to put anything up there especially that ridiculous probe! I'm even ovulating right now but my husband has too much on his mind to perform properly or at all.  He has no interest in sex even more then usual.  His last day @ ups after 11 years is Friday And he starts a great new job on Monday, but its all weighing heavy on his mind!  Of course I too feel the same way & don't want to have sex either except for the small chance that I will conceive....

We have an appt with Urologist on Wed 29th and he will assess the Varicocele & how to go about the surgery to fix it & then hopefully it will also fix his sperm then we will be able to get pregnant!

On top of all of this B.S. Ive started gaining the weight back...very slowly!  

Thanks you guys for being here for me during this extremely difficult time in my life...I've not been able to be the friend, wife etc that I like to be...I've had to only focus on myself which is hard..but necessary!  So thanks again for being here....It helps to talk/write it out I think!

XOXO

T