tbeattie81's Journal

Hi I LOVE your store! Just hoping because I'm new at using it for some serious pain control!  And its TOTALLY giving me my life back!  So can someone help me find sources, places online to go for support & all the information I need to do this more successfully financially, emotionally etc....
Can you help or anyone/place etc that you can do to help me get the help I need.  I'm trying to control & fix my life falling around me & the ONLY thing getting me through to stop having this "nervous breakdown"/ "psychotic break" of some sort!  Which is SOOOOOO unbelievably stressful & my BRAIN CHEMICALLY IS HAVING PROBLEMS...FUCKING PILLS PILLS PILLS THAT'S ALL SO MANY FUCKING PEOPLE SEEM LIKE THEY MIGHT BE WILLING TO HELP ME GET WHAT i NEED & "THEY" ALL AROUND ME KEEP FREAKING OUT BECAUSE i AM & i NEED CALM & SLOW, QUIET SOFT GOOD "WORDS/CLICHE" TO "CHANT" TO GET THROUGH WITH MY SANITY STILL HERE & EVERYONE ELSE AROUND ME TO GET THROUGH & TO DO THIS i NEED MORE INFORMATION TO DO IT.  INFORMAION NON-BIASED SO i CAN PROVE SOMEMORE & SHOW THAT THIS 'MENTAL BREAK" IS NOT AT ALL (I BELIEVE & MANY OTHERS) THAT IS THE MOST HELP ANYTHING ANYONE'S TRIED TO HELP ME WITH! SO HELP ME PLEASE I TRUST IN THIS COMPANY & YOUR NAME & JUST NEED SOME FUCKING HELP TO GET THROUGH TO PEOPLE CLEARLY THAT "MARY jANE" ISN'T THE ONLY THING "AFFECTING" THIS CHEMICAL SPIKE THAT'S CAUSING ME TO RAMBLE ON AND ON....YOU GET THE POING i THINK AND BELIEVE ME!?  HOW BAD ITS BECOMMING IN MY WORLD & EVERYONE AROUND ME.....BECAUSE OF FUCKING PAIN INSIDE & OUTSIDE OF ME NOW THAT JUST WON'T FUCKING STOP.  SO i"M GOING TO GO SMOKE MY MEDICINE OR SOMETHING HOWEVER MUCH i CAN AFFORD & TAKE ALL MY "NORMAL" PILLS...THERE ARE SOOOOO MANY ^ i HATE THEM ALL.  P.s. AND PLEASE HELP ME FIND THIS/A PLACE THAT i CAN GO FOR THIS STUFF & NOT FEEL STUPID LIKE IN FORUMS & CHAT ROOMS & SHIT THAT i DON'T GO THROUGH BECAUSE IT MAKES ME FEELS STUPID TOO!  HELP ME.....SOMEONE!?

PS BECAUSE OF HORRIFIC EMERGENCY ROOM VISIT ALL NIGHT LAST NIGHT...i HAVE TO GO GET CONTROL TO CALM THE FUCK DOWN...."LESS STRESS LESS PAIN" tYLENOL COMMERICAL BUT iWANTED TO REMEMBER WHICH i CANT SEEM TO REMEMBER ANYTHING LATELY GETTING WROSE & WROSE LIKE EVERYTHING ELSEANYWAY,FREAKING OUT ALSO BECAUSE COULD BE PREGNANT BUT THAT ER WAS LAZY & INCOMPETENT!  I HAVE TO GO NOW CAN'T BREATHE AGAIN, CHEST PAIN? I'M TRYING TO DO THIS ALONE RIGHT NOW & I HAVE TO GO TO HANDLE THIS SHIT & GET RHOUGHT OKAY WITHOUT EVERYONE LEACING ME LIKE THEY SHOULD BUT THEY ABSOLUTELY WON'T NO MATTER HOW MUCH i FUCKING BEG & PLEAD!  THEY JUST WANT TO COMMIT ME TO LOONEY TOONS HOSPITAL & HAHA IF ITS IN CANADA OR cALIFORNIA (SOUTHER) OR AMSTERDAM i'LL GO RIGHT FUCKING NOW ANYWHERE ANYTHING TO GET AN ESCAPE FROM THIS UNIMAGINABLE PAIN & EXHAUSTION! WILL COME BACK LATER WHEN MORE RESTED.

THANKS AGAIN!

XOXO

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