tbeattie81's Journal

Hi everyone!

 I know its been a long time!  I had the procedure but its still a few weeks before I will know if the procedure was a success or not; at least that is what my Dr. said last Wednesday at our follow up appointment.  Then I had my period week right after my surgery so I was feeling really terrible until this past week.  The last few days I've been feeling pretty good I"m hoping that is a sign that it was a success but I'm trying not to get my hopes up, I've already been dissapointed enough this month!  I guess I should explain that!   This last month before my period of course, I REALLY TRULY thought I was actually pregnant this time.  I was really tired nauseated several times, and my boobs hurt more than they had every hurt in my whole life!  It's been nearly a year of trying so we've got an appointment on the 11th of next month to check everything out i.e. his sperm.  Which is the easiest to test first.  

Other than that I've been really busy helping Mom get moved & settled in her new place.  I've only gotten one job assignment and I've signed up with 5 different temp agencies! It's ridiculous, financially things just get more fucked every month that goes by without me working & without him finding new work.  It's frustrating because we're barely hanging on & then the economy is shit & we keep finding more & more things falling apart on our house!  This weekend we have to figure out away to replace our shower shell thingie because the cracks that were in when we bought the house are just getting so bad that when you push on it water just pours out from under the shell!  It's gotten to the point where it kind of has to be fixed & can't wait any longer.  Brian (husband) might have a job lead with his best friends Dad's job he makes good money & it's full time but he's away A lot!  But I told Brian I would rather him be gone & us be okay & then when he comes home we can actually afford to do all the plans we've made then have him be home all the time & we're miserable because we can't afford anything!  So please keep your fingers crossed or pray to whomever you pray to that something breaks soon in that area. 

On another note, I got off weight watchers after my surgery & now I'm finding it impossible to get back on it!  I haven't gained any more weight while I was off but even before I got off I hadn't lost anymore weight in nearly a month!  I know its because I can't get the physical activivity in that I need because of the headaches.  So I'm thinking maybe I'll get back on it in a few weeks when I'm "cured" HOPEFULLY or at least see an improvement I dunno when I see something change in my pain that makes it not as hard to exercise.  Because with the pain I have its just impossible to think about working out especially because it usually makes whatever "small" amount of pain I have much worse.  

Anyway, I hope you're all well, & I'm sorry I've been absent for so long but please don't take it personally & I would love to have updates from all my friends that I haven't heard from for so long.  Take Care

Wishing Pain Free Days for all

XOXO

T